My anime friends & heroes are waiting on me to go on adventures together. *tries to make a portal in the wall to go back in time*
Nice.
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I will never forget the moment someone showed me nirvana
I was in awe and bewilderment for the entire music video (yes this video was the first one I saw) and then I said to my friend, "there is something sad about him, but I can't figure it out. I don't understand it but I want to. it draws you in."
and then I said, "I want to see them live man lets go" the band was charismatic to me. I fell in love pretty much immediately with their sound and their artistic creativity, the lyrics. what they seemed to be about.
and he was like, "you can't, he's dead." and im like what since when?
and I googled it. and April 1994 was the date. I was born a year later :/
shortly after I went on a beach vacation and I remember playing nirvana songs during the vacation and looking out on the ocean and singing them
what's odd is I never rehearsed the lyrics but somehow I already knew them. something about it felt familiar, like home.
I found relatability in the lyrics, and belonging in the scene of people that surrounded the "grunge is dead" movement.
I instantly found I connected with people who also listened to and liked their music.
but I wanted to look deeper. I wanted to understand, if it was all just an act, or if Kurt Cobain really was this genuine guy.
as I read deeper and deeper into it, the story that unfolded of his life was once again not only relatable but, it immerses you because you're constantly left in this mystery. there are all these loose ends that never draw any conclusions, as if someone tried to cover them all up.
and the final stop lands at Courtney love and some divorce papers.
and you're just left wondering, and with way more questions and confusion than you started with. and this curiosity for what really happened never really went away.
it just stuck on my mind like a thorn in a lions foot. after years of subconsciously pondering about it in the back of my head, while driving to school or, standing in the grocery isle putting bread in my cart.
I eventually determined that there are only a few options as to what really happened. and I chose to believe what is least unsettling.
my enchantment though with members of the 27 club and diseased artists in general really began here and Kurt Cobain was the first of many that I became entrenched with. I feel emotionally tied to all these people because of their innate ability to reach into your soul and connect with it in a way that can't be undone.
I totally get why Jeffree Star has a tattoo of Kurt Cobain right on the center of his chest. I don't think kurt Cobain would of liked that very much and he's probably rolling in his grave over it but- I get why Jeffree did it.
also on his back he has several other idols of his, members of the 27 club, mostly musical artists on his back which is cool.
