i can't help but feel this isn't really me, and that i'm just pretending to be a better person now
if fulfillment is all about being true to yourself, things are going to have to take a dark turn
That's stupid, yes life goes up and down but don't self sabotage to give yourself a feeling of control! Try to be as happy as you can!
you took care of the external parts but not the inner pieces. i have been down that path before, discovered pick up artistry (mystery method etc), got skinny and cute (ppl still have old pics of me), girls, an internship in chicago in 2013 etc, pumped up my ego in order to cover up my low self esteem.
you can have millions of dollars and a body like a temple and still feel like a disgusting worm, or be a fat slob at the cafe that thinks he's God and feels it deep down(something I always envied). You still have the same insides even though you changed everything on the surface. You neglected inner game for outer game.
Get therapy, figure out who you really are, do you have childhood trauma? Work on it. It seriously works. I have way less money than 2 years ago plus I got fat and look like shit but I have a cat, an old hobby I am enjoying again, a girl and that feeling of wearing a worthy person costume over a worthless sack of shit body feeling you are describing is gone.
In your current stance you will chase self-esteem boosts like a rat by doing more push-ups, winning more chess games, then going back to feeling empty again. The issue is inside.
I got this from the red pill subreddit funnily enough 1 year ago, and I can personally say it helped me alot. People use this to boost their inner game.
https://www.verywellmind.com/how-to-practice-loving-kindness-meditation-3144786
Your arrogance will be your downfall
you took care of the external parts but not the inner pieces. i have been down that path before, discovered pick up artistry (mystery method etc), got skinny and cute (ppl still have old pics of me), girls, an internship in chicago in 2013 etc, pumped up my ego in order to cover up my low self esteem.
you can have millions of dollars and a body like a temple and still feel like a disgusting worm, or be a fat slob at the cafe that thinks he's God and feels it deep down(something I always envied). You still have the same insides even though you changed everything on the surface. You neglected inner game for outer game.
Get therapy, figure out who you really are, do you have childhood trauma? Work on it. It seriously works. I have way less money than 2 years ago plus I got fat and look like shit but I have a cat, an old hobby I am enjoying again, a girl and that feeling of wearing a worthy person costume over a worthless sack of shit body feeling you are describing is gone.
In your current stance you will chase self-esteem boosts like a rat by doing more push-ups, winning more chess games, then going back to feeling empty again. The issue is inside.
I got this from the red pill subreddit funnily enough 1 year ago, and I can personally say it helped me alot. People use this to boost their inner game.
https://www.verywellmind.com/how-to-practice-loving-kindness-meditation-3144786
Your arrogance will be your downfall
His arrogance is also how he got here in the first place, it has a place in society.
you took care of the external parts but not the inner pieces. i have been down that path before, discovered pick up artistry (mystery method etc), got skinny and cute (ppl still have old pics of me), girls, an internship in chicago in 2013 etc, pumped up my ego in order to cover up my low self esteem.
you can have millions of dollars and a body like a temple and still feel like a disgusting worm, or be a fat slob at the cafe that thinks he's God and feels it deep down(something I always envied). You still have the same insides even though you changed everything on the surface. You neglected inner game for outer game.
Get therapy, figure out who you really are, do you have childhood trauma? Work on it. It seriously works. I have way less money than 2 years ago plus I got fat and look like shit but I have a cat, an old hobby I am enjoying again, a girl and that feeling of wearing a worthy person costume over a worthless sack of shit body feeling you are describing is gone.
In your current stance you will chase self-esteem boosts like a rat by doing more push-ups, winning more chess games, then going back to feeling empty again. The issue is inside.
I got this from the red pill subreddit funnily enough 1 year ago, and I can personally say it helped me alot. People use this to boost their inner game.
https://www.verywellmind.com/how-to-practice-loving-kindness-meditation-3144786
Your arrogance will be your downfall
His arrogance is also how he got here in the first place, it has a place in society.
Do you mean how he's wanted in Turkey for CP, is incredibly codependent, and might kill himself if his wife leaves him (which she probably will once she know his actual personality). Not to mention he has a bunch of people hating on him online for scamming them.
What's your place in society? Why are you so unsuccessful despite being "Smart"? Are your posts on this forum your life's greatest accomplishment?
you took care of the external parts but not the inner pieces. i have been down that path before, discovered pick up artistry (mystery method etc), got skinny and cute (ppl still have old pics of me), girls, an internship in chicago in 2013 etc, pumped up my ego in order to cover up my low self esteem.
you can have millions of dollars and a body like a temple and still feel like a disgusting worm, or be a fat slob at the cafe that thinks he's God and feels it deep down(something I always envied). You still have the same insides even though you changed everything on the surface. You neglected inner game for outer game.
Get therapy, figure out who you really are, do you have childhood trauma? Work on it. It seriously works. I have way less money than 2 years ago plus I got fat and look like shit but I have a cat, an old hobby I am enjoying again, a girl and that feeling of wearing a worthy person costume over a worthless sack of shit body feeling you are describing is gone.
In your current stance you will chase self-esteem boosts like a rat by doing more push-ups, winning more chess games, then going back to feeling empty again. The issue is inside.
I got this from the red pill subreddit funnily enough 1 year ago, and I can personally say it helped me alot. People use this to boost their inner game.
https://www.verywellmind.com/how-to-practice-loving-kindness-meditation-3144786
Your arrogance will be your downfall
His arrogance is also how he got here in the first place, it has a place in society.
Do you mean how he's wanted in Turkey for CP, is incredibly codependent, and might kill himself if his wife leaves him (which she probably will once she know his actual personality). Not to mention he has a bunch of people hating on him online for scamming them.
Lol no, I'd also meant the gains he's had from living this lifestyle. He's had good food, tons of sex (only counting the adults), primo drugs and a fair deal of excitement between the valleys in this peak and valley model. He's also been able to prank people with monetary incentive following it, and he makes it more entertaining than some scammy call service.
You have to admit that this life path has given him an interesting set of tools to work with compared to yourself. As is, he's more of a charisma than you are and can get away with much as a household name, his audacity actually assists his presentation rather than having it fall apart as it would for someone more shameful.
What's your place in society?
A collage of archetypes based on what purpose I end up serving in other's lives.
Why are you so unsuccessful despite being "Smart"?
Because I gots the issues.
Are your posts on this forum your life's greatest accomplishment?
No, but this forum has led to some of the highlights of my life.
It's less about what something is, and more about how you can use it. Through this forum I've traveled, landed a long lasting relationship, had a few nice years in an Illinois house with SC roommates, met others from here who I didn't end up living with, and many lessons learned had this place at it's foundation for the teachings.
There's the room to gain something from pretty much anything social, the limits are mostly self-imposed. I'd say that this forum has taught me much in lessons I might have otherwise lacked without it, it's an amazing resource for Chresomancy gains, and the people here can present surprisingly real based on the constraints of this environment.
The peaks between his valleys is similar to those with bipolar disorder (as he has BPD). No matter how "successful" his life is, he will never be satisfied.
As for you, do I need to mention that during your long lasting relationship, you've had multiple suicide attempts, and everyone just laughed at you. No one really cared about how you came out.
You have a very shallow view of the world, based on what you consider to be successful. In fact, you've often looked down upon me, but you are miserable. I strongly suspect Jim (who you respect) is also miserable.
Meanwhile, my life is satisfying.
The peaks between his valleys is similar to those with bipolar disorder (as he has BPD). No matter how "successful" his life is, he will never be satisfied.
Mood swing types can find satisfaction at the mid-ground.
As for you, do I need to mention that during your long lasting relationship, you've had multiple suicide attempts, and everyone just laughed at you.
The suicide attempts and laughter's an independent variable in that they'd likely have occurred with or without SC, while the positive aspects from being here I can embrace over it's specificity.
I can sit here and take for granted that if I hadn't attended that I may have found someone else, or that I may have ended up with similar travel experiences through a different course of events, but that's so nebulous that I can't even really consider what it'd amount to, while how things have come to pass in a positive light can be appreciated for the reality.
For the negative things, unless the events themselves were so specific as to leave lasting marks, they can be disregarded over how this sort of thing's been around pre-the forum.
No one really cared about how you came out.
What's your basis for this bit?
You have a very shallow view of the world, based on what you consider to be successful.
Doesn't everyone?
In fact, you've often looked down upon me, but you are miserable.
Who are you again?
Meanwhile, my life is satisfying.
I always have my doubts about people who feel the need to brag to fill the space.
"He who knows does not speak, he who speaks does not know."
Why do you feel like who you are and what you have are mutually exclusive? If you have a strong sense of self, who circumstances make you look like is of little consequence beyond the responses you get for it, which it sounds like are positive in this case. Is the need to express yourself in every area of your life worth ruining something that's working for you? Unless this is something that's consuming your life, or being fake somehow fundamentally undermines what you can get from it, maybe working on yourself would mean you don't have to give up what you have now.
