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i quit taking my antidepressants


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I have not felt this good in the 6 years since I've started taking them. The meds really saved me the first 3 years but the process during which I stabilised my life and got my act together came at the cost of something else. I have been feeling numb, like my internal dialogue was muffled. Like something had been suppressing my mind.

I think the meds made me more stupid and hampered my creativity. I am already feeling that a pressure has been lifted off my brain and I've noticed an increased ability to express myself and turning thoughts into coherent sentences, and forming linguistic structures more smoothly. However I suspect it'll take a while to fully recover and readjust.

I'm overall happier. I hope it's not just some rebound effect (like my brain being hyperactive during SSRI withdrawal/sudden serotonin influx but one thing is for sure: I'm never taking those things again. Even if I relapse, I'd rather enjoy the highs and lows than suffer an existence devoid of passion

that is all

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Been taking them for 6 years?

Talk to the psych to taper down your dosage gradually if u wanna quit, RETARD

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You were on antidepressants? 

That explains how you were describing alcohol. 

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6-8 days for.most, 28 for Prozac till they out ur system. 

After u stop, ur brain will be readjusting to non-meds level. That will take a while too.

Are u sure u will man up through that and.come.on the otherside non-depressed?

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You were on antidepressants? 

That explains how you were describing alcohol. 

 not entirely sure what description you're referring to, but yes the combination certainly won't have done me any favours

 

6-8 days for.most, 28 for Prozac till they out ur system. 

After u stop, ur brain will be readjusting to non-meds level. That will take a while too.

Are u sure u will man up through that and.come.on the otherside non-depressed?

 I can't be sure, but with all the progress I've made I am confident enough to take the risk 

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chimpi said: 

You were on antidepressants? 

That explains how you were describing alcohol. 

 not entirely sure what description you're referring to, but yes the combination certainly won't have done me any favours

The symptoms of it, which otherwise had me a bit baffled from lacking the bigger picture. 

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chimpi said: 

You were on antidepressants? 

That explains how you were describing alcohol. 

 not entirely sure what description you're referring to, but yes the combination certainly won't have done me any favours

 

6-8 days for.most, 28 for Prozac till they out ur system. 

After u stop, ur brain will be readjusting to non-meds level. That will take a while too.

Are u sure u will man up through that and.come.on the otherside non-depressed?

 I can't be sure, but with all the progress I've made I am confident enough to take the risk 

 Why take that risk tho? Are u masochistic, or have u finally came to the boomer realisation that psychiatric meds are the actual devil?

All I'm saying is that u could tapper them off and gradually get to this happi monke u r now over 2-3 months, rather than dealing with a period of shite.

 

That's. Just playing devil's advocate tho. U may not get SSRI withdrawal from stopping it abruptly at all, depends, who knows.

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It's actually pretty dangerous to stop abruptly, depending on what your dose was. You can get brain zaps.

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user33313 said:
Why take that risk tho? Are u masochistic, or have u finally came to the boomer realisation that psychiatric meds are the actual devil?

All I'm saying is that u could tapper them off and gradually get to this happi monke u r now over 2-3 months, rather than dealing with a period of shite.

That's. Just playing devil's advocate tho. U may not get SSRI withdrawal from stopping it abruptly at all, depends, who knows.
Alright, I'll explain my reasoning. 

When I was deeply miserable I remember taking the antidepressants and feeling relief from the numbness that they brought. I think those meds serve to bring a person up to a certain level of stability, so as to provide a basis for personal improvement. However, I found that the relief of these pills doesn't follow a progressive or proportional growth model. When I was at, say, 20% contentment then the pills allowed me to function from a 40% basis. Having grown to a 60% or even 70% contentment rate, the pills still drew me back to 40%. They don't necessarily made me happier, they simply stunted part of my brain and muffled my internal dialogue so that I could better focus on recovery. 

That's why I think it's time to get off them, not because I blame medication for being evil. As for the tapering; My dosage was cut in half in January 2020 and I vowed to be free of medications by January 2021. The dose is relatively low enough to go cold turkey. 

It's actually pretty dangerous to stop abruptly, depending on what your dose was. You can get brain zaps.

I am well aware. I've been having brain zaps every third time I move my head to the left or right. It's like life is lagging sometimes and it does distract me from forming fully coherent thoughts. However this will pass, I did not know that brain zaps were dangerous per se. 

I still hope that the giddyness and joy I have felt for the past three days aren't just a rebound effect from my serotonin not being regulated by pills any longer. 

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chimpi said:
I am well aware. I've been having brain zaps every third time I move my head to the left or right. It's like life is lagging sometimes and it does distract me from forming fully coherent thoughts. However this will pass, I did not know that brain zaps were dangerous per se.

They're not. When I was writing that, I was thinking how some people get stuck with them long-term. But I don't know if tapering makes any difference for that.

 

chimpi said:
I still hope that the giddyness and joy I have felt for the past three days aren't just a rebound effect from my serotonin not being regulated by pills any longer.

If you were taking SSRIs, your serotonin should be lower if anything, no? I hear a lot of people describing a sort of blankness or dulling on SSRIs. I'm curious about that, I guess I'll see for myself in a month or so.

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