Pretty sure I've been sabotaging all my relationships with people cos it's the end of the year and those suicidal thoughts and hallucinations have come in pretty fucken vivid. Jim seems liken you just love misery and have trouble staying on the straight and narrow cos like, it's quite an easy fall right? Very few find it anyways.
What do you do to keep yourself a pathetic loser and never bring anything good to your life?
I either need to do my goals right now or I put them off entirely until next year. I should be spending this time in quarantine studying organic chemistry, biology, and various artisanal skills relevant to my goals, but instead I feel discouraged to study them because I don't have the equipment/ space to do these things hands-on so instead I've been watching 8 hours of YouTube a day and saying "One day I will..."
Sc is pretty boring.
What do you do to keep yourself a pathetic loser and never bring anything good to your life?
I sperg in relationships when they are going good causing problems and 2 months ago I ghosted a job interview from Bitfinex (crypto exchange).
Convince myself that I am genetically incapable of attaining what I want.