suicide attempt number god knows how many
I'm going to move our asses to a new state but I'm going to go to a 30 days ish treatment program for bpd in that state first before bringing him there and convincing him to do either a therapy or rehab program here while Im in treatment
We were doing things mostly his way and he was going to fucking kill us both, so now we're going to do it mine or he can off himself but he's not fucking taking me with him
he literally was probably going to kill me because his ego is so fuckingg huge and he was scared to live from his heart so Im noping out until he learns to trust me (if he is capable of making that change in himself otherwise he will prob be dead soon)
pray for him and wish him the best and a successful recovery from bpd or whatever. his liver is probably going to be fine
he literally was probably going to kill me because his ego is so fuckingg huge and he was scared to live from his heart so Im noping out until he learns to trust me (if he is capable of making that change in himself otherwise he will prob be dead soon)
Are you sure it wasn't a crime of passion kind of thing?
I've known people who had "Death Pact" on the brain as if it were something romantic or otherwise essential.
he is terrified as fuck to trust me and give up his massive egoic pride but he has to because he is going to destroy himself permanently if he doesnt
How did this put your life on the line rather than lead to him running away to enact the dramatics on himself?
he literally was probably going to kill me because his ego is so fuckingg huge and he was scared to live from his heart so Im noping out until he learns to trust me (if he is capable of making that change in himself otherwise he will prob be dead soon)
Are you sure it wasn't a crime of passion kind of thing?
I've known people who had "Death Pact" on the brain as if it were something romantic or otherwise essential.he is terrified as fuck to trust me and give up his massive egoic pride but he has to because he is going to destroy himself permanently if he doesnt
How did this put your life on the line rather than lead to him running away to enact the dramatics on himself?
he was in the mindstate of he would rather kill me and himself before I left (abandoned) him and moved on
he started being physically violent with me and at that point I detached from hin emotionally and did what he was so scared of which was leave him
It's the drugs (especially crack) or me, he even said himself that chasing drug highs was his mistress and I will not stand for it also it will lead him right to his death but take everything from him first
crack is fucking demonic I swear to God. pure evil
he literally was probably going to kill me because his ego is so fuckingg huge and he was scared to live from his heart so Im noping out until he learns to trust me (if he is capable of making that change in himself otherwise he will prob be dead soon)
Are you sure it wasn't a crime of passion kind of thing?
I've known people who had "Death Pact" on the brain as if it were something romantic or otherwise essential.he is terrified as fuck to trust me and give up his massive egoic pride but he has to because he is going to destroy himself permanently if he doesnt
How did this put your life on the line rather than lead to him running away to enact the dramatics on himself?
he was in the mindstate of he would rather kill me and himself before I left (abandoned) him and moved on
...that's fucked up.
Buy pepper spray or bear mace, this likely won't be the only time this happens.
he started being physically violent with me and at that point I detached from hin emotionally and did what he was so scared of which was leave him
Then he ate a bunch of Tylenol?
I think he has it in him to choose living from his heart instesd of his ego and give up the drugs and his old lifestyle
but if not I will leave him permanently to his ruin and move on and date a normal man without drug addiction and bpd lol
he literally was probably going to kill me because his ego is so fuckingg huge and he was scared to live from his heart so Im noping out until he learns to trust me (if he is capable of making that change in himself otherwise he will prob be dead soon)
Are you sure it wasn't a crime of passion kind of thing?
I've known people who had "Death Pact" on the brain as if it were something romantic or otherwise essential.he is terrified as fuck to trust me and give up his massive egoic pride but he has to because he is going to destroy himself permanently if he doesnt
How did this put your life on the line rather than lead to him running away to enact the dramatics on himself?
he was in the mindstate of he would rather kill me and himself before I left (abandoned) him and moved on
...that's fucked up.
Buy pepper spray or bear mace, this likely won't be the only time this happens.he started being physically violent with me and at that point I detached from hin emotionally and did what he was so scared of which was leave him
Then he ate a bunch of Tylenol?
I have some
and yes, because I told him I didnt want to see him before I left to go to the recovery program bc I dont trust my physical safety with him rn
