Expose yourself
Expose yourself
This is so beautiful
The least likable side of me?
I occasionally (quite rarely actually) have borderline episodes and think people are against me, throw a tantrum, cuss at people, blame people for not reading my mind, become paranoid, break off relationships, take pleasure in harming people I like and enjoy seeing their reaction, lie, invent stories, and use people. So these episodes are usually followed by a sea of regret, but only after the harm is done.
I'm 100% aware of what I am doing and what the aftermath is, and I can stop without any issues. So I only do that when I know I can get away with it. However, if I don't know the person at all or if they depend on me, I won't ever do it.
I occasionally (quite rarely actually) have borderline episodes and think people are against me, throw a tantrum, cuss at people, blame people for not reading my mind, become paranoid, break off relationships, take pleasure in harming people I like and enjoy seeing their reaction, lie, invent stories, and use people. So these episodes are usually followed by a sea of regret, but only after the harm is done.
This explains a lot.
I'm 100% aware of what I am doing and what the aftermath is, and I can stop without any issues.
A simple apology is strangely disarming, and I didn't really factor for it being so effective until I watched your work.
I struggle with inauthentic apologies, but you've otherwise shown it to be quite the art form.
So I only do that when I know I can get away with it. However, if I don't know the person at all or if they depend on me, I won't ever do it.
Again, this explains a lot.
Me when I'm myself:
Me during an episode:
Basically, the dude in Black Mirror: Bandersnatch is somewhere in the middle of the two states. I used to do lots of this, but with a computer: