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and breaking random shit

Oh, that's, huh. 

Like just bottles, or expensive and sentimental shit? 

 

Lol, im not bringing a TV or my laptop in here until he stops breaking shit when we argue about something he is too heated about he's doing better but hasnt completely stopped yet 

most of it has been things that I didnt care about and none of it was my possessions a couple were things I liked that he smashed on the floor or across the room but those things still work luckily

I thought we was just being careless but he's actually breaking things out of anger? 

He's effectively throwing tantrums like a child would, red flags, 

He is trying to fight off his urge to do more uppers though, isn't he? 

It could be a part of the recovery. 

   I second that. Throwing tantrums when trying to get clean is pretty much expected. It might be about something else but, in reality it’s about the drug of choice, And the difficulty of learning to live without it

 

he could probably benefit from a recovery community, I know some great ones in Florida if y’all ever choose to move. But if he’s really serious about it I can connect him with professionals who for free will connect him with places that offer help for individuals trying to lead a recovered relapse free life

 

Half of recovery is just relapse prevention and if he doesn’t have a plan or a support group in place, while also working the program... all I can say is... good luck. 

There are people out there that I know got clean off things without long term programs of any sort in place and no effort in their recovery. But they aren’t necessarily better for it... recovery is about more than just like clean time it’s about transformation and healing so the individual can lead a safer healthier and more peaceful life. For the sake of their wellness and happiness and the others around them. 

 

The people I know who got clean and did not continue recovery after discharge from detox or rehab wound up staying in the same place mentally, not really progressing or bettering their life. Yes they use less but, they did not totally stop using all substances. I.e, pot, pills, kratom, whatever they can lean on. And a lot of them end up becoming more heavy or regular drinkers. 

and I can speak on this because I was one of them. I quit dope and then alcohol literally just snuck up on me and became a habitual thing like, smoking or, drinking coffee. Have a beer, have a glass of wine. But then on bad days it became, a few too many. Or, at parties you know I’d make myself absolutely sick and this led into a leeway of, choosing to smoke pot and choosing to do a little stimulants here and there for functional purposes. But it led me back into the life style of taking drugs. And then it became benzos to calm down. Because my life was still a fucking wreck, and my mind was still a fucking wreck, and I had not found balance and peace in my life- because I didn’t make any effort to make it. I didn’t progress. I didn’t grow. I was clean from opiates but, the lack of recovery in my life is what allowed me to ultimately continue down a path that led to relapse. 

addicfion is a sickness of the mind and if you don’t treat it as such... like you just cure the physiological dependency aka the physical aspect of it... km going to be honest with you... the physical part aka withdrawal and detox... that’s the easy part. 

last edit on 10/1/2020 6:24:37 PM
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0 votes RE: my boyfriend used to co...

and breaking random shit

Oh, that's, huh. 

Like just bottles, or expensive and sentimental shit? 

 

Lol, im not bringing a TV or my laptop in here until he stops breaking shit when we argue about something he is too heated about he's doing better but hasnt completely stopped yet 

most of it has been things that I didnt care about and none of it was my possessions a couple were things I liked that he smashed on the floor or across the room but those things still work luckily

I thought we was just being careless but he's actually breaking things out of anger? 

He's effectively throwing tantrums like a child would, red flags, 

He is trying to fight off his urge to do more uppers though, isn't he? 

It could be a part of the recovery. 

 

That's true and is now talking about steroids. 

40% (conservative value) of addicts relapse in the first year and tbh I don't know if that includes figures for those who just switch to abusing some other substance. 

Steroids would definitely be a bad idea for a recoverying addict already showing signs of emotional instability. 

 

 

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0 votes RE: my boyfriend used to co...

and breaking random shit

Oh, that's, huh. 

Like just bottles, or expensive and sentimental shit? 

 

Lol, im not bringing a TV or my laptop in here until he stops breaking shit when we argue about something he is too heated about he's doing better but hasnt completely stopped yet 

most of it has been things that I didnt care about and none of it was my possessions a couple were things I liked that he smashed on the floor or across the room but those things still work luckily

 I thought we was just being careless but he's actually breaking things out of anger? 

He's effectively throwing tantrums like a child would, red flags, 

he has soooooo many red flags thats why most girls can't handle him as a boyfriend but I'm good for him and calm him down for whatever reason, he is breaking shit less and less and will stop completely soon at least our stuff and I'm probably moving the rest of my stuff in this weekend, last night we told my mom(he doesnt really get along with her they dont like eachother he has lied to and manipulated her to get money from her a lot which pissed her off lol) we dont want money for rent anymore and now that I'm almost completely dependent on him he is even more calm and happier than normal 

 

aaand he finally has a Psychiatrist appointment on Monday and will get meds for his adhd and maybe klonopin which will calm him down even more. he almost beat me up he was about to a couple times when he had a meltdown after I told him I cheated but he didnt. I would have let him too because I felt so guilty but no guy has ever hit me before or female people have wanted to hit me attack me but never do because my nature is so gentle and passive, it's funny especially with living where I do now I've been around a lot of violent people, people throwing punches beating up other people and I will literally go up and hug whoever is angry like my boyfriends friends and acquaintances and say comforting words and put myself at risk lmao to try to keep things peaceful  

last edit on 10/1/2020 8:13:07 PM
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0 votes RE: my boyfriend used to co...

and breaking random shit

Oh, that's, huh. 

Like just bottles, or expensive and sentimental shit? 

 

Lol, im not bringing a TV or my laptop in here until he stops breaking shit when we argue about something he is too heated about he's doing better but hasnt completely stopped yet 

most of it has been things that I didnt care about and none of it was my possessions a couple were things I liked that he smashed on the floor or across the room but those things still work luckily

I thought we was just being careless but he's actually breaking things out of anger? 

He's effectively throwing tantrums like a child would, red flags, 

He is trying to fight off his urge to do more uppers though, isn't he? 

It could be a part of the recovery. 

No he used to do this everywhere he lives and in general he is(becoming was, im teaching him to control it and the benefits of it) very aggressive and violent when angry

last edit on 10/1/2020 7:12:46 PM
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Yeeeahhh... that shit doesn't need steroids. 

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he has soooooo many red flags thats why most girls can't handle him as a boyfriend but I'm good for him and calm him down for whatever reason, he is breaking shit less and less and will stop completely soon at least our stuff and I'm probably moving the rest of my stuff in this weekend, last night we told my mom(he doesnt really get along with her they dont like eachother he has lied to and manipulated her to get money from her a lot which pissed her off lol) we dont want money for rent anymore and now that I'm almost completely dependent on him he is even more calm and happier than normal

Oh, honey. After you've over your first honeymoon phase, shit is going to hit the fan hard.

last edit on 10/1/2020 8:48:07 PM
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0 votes RE: my boyfriend used to co...

and breaking random shit

Oh, that's, huh. 

Like just bottles, or expensive and sentimental shit? 

 

Lol, im not bringing a TV or my laptop in here until he stops breaking shit when we argue about something he is too heated about he's doing better but hasnt completely stopped yet 

most of it has been things that I didnt care about and none of it was my possessions a couple were things I liked that he smashed on the floor or across the room but those things still work luckily

 I thought we was just being careless but he's actually breaking things out of anger? 

He's effectively throwing tantrums like a child would, red flags, 

he has soooooo many red flags thats why most girls can't handle him as a boyfriend but I'm good for him and calm him down for whatever reason, he is breaking shit less and less and will stop completely soon at least our stuff and I'm probably moving the rest of my stuff in this weekend, last night we told my mom(he doesnt really get along with her they dont like eachother he has lied to and manipulated her to get money from her a lot which pissed her off lol) we dont want money for rent anymore and now that I'm almost completely dependent on him he is even more calm and happier than normal 

 

aaand he finally has a Psychiatrist appointment on Monday and will get meds for his adhd and maybe klonopin which will calm him down even more. he almost beat me up he was about to a couple times when he had a meltdown after I told him I cheated but he didnt. I would have let him too because I felt so guilty but no guy has ever hit me before or female people have wanted to hit me attack me but never do because my nature is so gentle and passive, it's funny especially with living where I do now I've been around a lot of violent people, people throwing punches beating up other people and I will literally go up and hug whoever is angry like my boyfriends friends and acquaintances and say comforting words and put myself at risk lmao to try to keep things peaceful  

 Have you ever been in a abusive relationship?

 Because you might have just entered one. 

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0 votes RE: my boyfriend used to co...

and breaking random shit

Oh, that's, huh. 

Like just bottles, or expensive and sentimental shit? 

 

Lol, im not bringing a TV or my laptop in here until he stops breaking shit when we argue about something he is too heated about he's doing better but hasnt completely stopped yet 

most of it has been things that I didnt care about and none of it was my possessions a couple were things I liked that he smashed on the floor or across the room but those things still work luckily

 I thought we was just being careless but he's actually breaking things out of anger? 

He's effectively throwing tantrums like a child would, red flags, 

he has soooooo many red flags thats why most girls can't handle him as a boyfriend but I'm good for him and calm him down for whatever reason, he is breaking shit less and less and will stop completely soon at least our stuff and I'm probably moving the rest of my stuff in this weekend, last night we told my mom(he doesnt really get along with her they dont like eachother he has lied to and manipulated her to get money from her a lot which pissed her off lol) we dont want money for rent anymore and now that I'm almost completely dependent on him he is even more calm and happier than normal 

 

aaand he finally has a Psychiatrist appointment on Monday and will get meds for his adhd and maybe klonopin which will calm him down even more. he almost beat me up he was about to a couple times when he had a meltdown after I told him I cheated but he didnt. I would have let him too because I felt so guilty but no guy has ever hit me before or female people have wanted to hit me attack me but never do because my nature is so gentle and passive, it's funny especially with living where I do now I've been around a lot of violent people, people throwing punches beating up other people and I will literally go up and hug whoever is angry like my boyfriends friends and acquaintances and say comforting words and put myself at risk lmao to try to keep things peaceful  

 Have you ever been in a abusive relationship?

 Because you might have just entered one. 

Yes I have but only emotionally / psychologically abusive relationships

but he's becoming more calm and less violent instead of the opposite..in abusive relationships the violence / abuse tends to increase instead of decrease and he's never hit me. and he isn't emotionally or psychologically abusive to me in fact he meets all of my emotional needs

at most anything more abusive than a normal relationship is like vanilla bdsm playing around and sexually and I thoroughly enjoy it

last edit on 10/1/2020 9:32:14 PM
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he has soooooo many red flags thats why most girls can't handle him as a boyfriend but I'm good for him and calm him down for whatever reason, he is breaking shit less and less and will stop completely soon at least our stuff and I'm probably moving the rest of my stuff in this weekend, last night we told my mom(he doesnt really get along with her they dont like eachother he has lied to and manipulated her to get money from her a lot which pissed her off lol) we dont want money for rent anymore and now that I'm almost completely dependent on him he is even more calm and happier than normal 

 

aaand he finally has a Psychiatrist appointment on Monday and will get meds for his adhd and maybe klonopin which will calm him down even more. he almost beat me up he was about to a couple times when he had a meltdown after I told him I cheated but he didnt. I would have let him too because I felt so guilty but no guy has ever hit me before or female people have wanted to hit me attack me but never do because my nature is so gentle and passive, it's funny especially with living where I do now I've been around a lot of violent people, people throwing punches beating up other people and I will literally go up and hug whoever is angry like my boyfriends friends and acquaintances and say comforting words and put myself at risk lmao to try to keep things peaceful  

 Have you ever been in a abusive relationship?

 Because you might have just entered one. 

Yes I have but only emotionally / psychologically abusive relationships

but he's becoming more calm and less violent instead of the opposite..in abusive relationships the violence / abuse tends to increase instead of decrease and he's never hit me. and he isn't emotionally or psychologically abusive to me in fact he meets all of my emotional needs

at most anything more abusive than a normal relationship is like vanilla bdsm playing around and sexually and I thoroughly enjoy it

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I can't believe he actually folded his clothes and is using the dirty clothes basket lol who is this man and where is my boyfriend 

this is so fucking adorable I cant even

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