your dad knows u made up having a brother who committed suicide, and he exposed u as a lying bitch. now we all know the truth and we are better off for it
I’m not afraid of talking about anything with my parents, so they already know about SC and how I have “people online that I talk to.” Like, they met Tryp obviously like, they know where he came from and how we met and everything, we didn’t try to hide anything from them.
And they understand that I am a very creative person, and that this was just an outlet for me. They understand that my trauma is because of abused I’ve faced at their hands, and they’ve admitted it was a mistake how they parented me. They know I have trauma with my ex boyfriend. They know I’ve struggled with addiction.
Blanc’s life may of not been totally real but, it was very rooted in a lot of things that happened to me. I just got sort of lost in that character at one point, it’s hard to explain but like. I dunno it’s such a part of me, it feels like me. But it’s also, not. At the same time.
But yeah, Um. My parents aren’t like, worried about anything. They understand I’m in a good place now. And it was a thing of the past. Like I’m past it. Basically is what I’m trying to make clear here but.
My dad didn’t “expose” me lol, I’ve told you countless times blanc isn’t real but you don’t believe it. Even though it sort of is real, it’s obviously sort of not at the same time. It’s part of me but it’s not all of me, basically.
And that’s why I kept insisting when people would come at me I was like, “you don’t really know me.” LOL that’s what I was trying to say but, I just, didn’t even really understand it myself well enough to explain it like this, like I have just now. I hadn’t wrapped my head around it.
I didn’t know why I was doing all of this, I just did like, almost sort of autonomously. And it didn’t make sense why i was doing any of it until afterward.
Wow you may actually be a psychopath
Aww Blanc stahp, no one is going to read fully through that and if they do they'll likely wonder if it's true at all
It’s okay, I understand. To each their own, but I’m happy with who I am and just know that.
I was just explaining it for those who do want to understand, but to those who want to judge, I know you exist and, hey, we can’t all be in the same boat.
Life needs, a bit of, collision once in a while. I needed the barrier of judgement and empathy simultaneously to help me find myself. And the grueling environment here allowed me to develop a stronger sense of self confidence independent of outside opinions and validation.
So it’s been good for me, and the blatant bold honesty is something I appreciate and am drawn to, environment wise- even if some people call it just flat out mean or toxic, abusive, etc. I’m drawn to environments like this initially because it’s where I was comfortable.
Because all those horrible things people say to me, I thought them about myself too. All the horrible things you say to other people, and about the world and life, and the understandings you have of it- I once thought that way too.
It was seeing other people do it that made me realize how stupid it was, I guess. And to ascend out of that toxic mentality.
But just know like, I do understand, and if I don’t, I have the intention of wanting to. I get it. Even if I don’t get it fully like, I get it. You know what I mean. And, it’s okay like, I’m not judging. It’s just, life man. We all, have shit and like, I accept people where they’re at. Is what I’m trying to say. 100% not judging you for, just bein u man.
Even if later that changes, and even if it didn’t.
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