You should consider just trying to implement one new healthy habit into your life a month.
And once you see how easy it is, the transition would become easier.
Like, start with something easy and small, like drinking more water everyday. Make it fun, reward yourself.
I think we're all well aware everyone has their own type and preferences in a significant other, but your focus should be on taking care of yourself and doing you. And whoever you do end up with shouldn't be with you because of your body type...
It takes a lot of practice but try to put that out of your head. Because at the end of the day I promise you it has nothing to do with your body when the "right" person comes around.
And lastly, while its healthy to notice things about your appearance you like or dislike, going to unhealthy measure in either direction isn't considered balanced. It's a further detriment to your mental health and physical health to put your body under any unnecessary duress, whether it be over eating or under eating, bad eating patterns, or the food you are specifically eating isn't balanced.
I would seek to find a health balance in your life that you are comfortable with and feel your best at- not on the outside, but on the inside. Focus on feeling good.
And please remember that this search for health and wellness has nothing to do with weight. If it's overbearing, throw out your scale. And remind yourself this is just about your health, and wanting to be healthy, and feel well.
Being just five pounds over weight puts raises you at a higher risk for heart disease. The leading cause of heart disease is- bacon. The second, is stress. Not just mental stress, but physiological stress the body can undergo from having an imbalanced system. For example eating every hour, would put extra stress on your digestive system and cause it to be overworked. This puts a strain on your body, and will result in fatigue as it expends all its extra energy constantly working on all the food you're eating constantly.
When you hit forty, fifty, sixty- bad life style habits will start to catch up with you physiological health problem related- not, just physically in appearance. It doesn't matter if your man likes extra meat on your bones- when you are dead.
Spend a week in a hospital and you will start to really take into consideration what you're doing wrong in your life style habits.
When you start to see pulmonary edema, stroke, clogged arteries, heart attacks- some people- it's their third heart attack.
All of this, is just from trans fats, plague build up, and no exercise.
Even if you like your appearance, you would be disgusted with what you will do to your insides. It's not abut that at the end of the day when you are shaving years if not decades off your life, and possibly your quality of life later in life- will look drastically different. It won't be fun. It will be hard, and painful- and you will regret not at least attempting to take care of your health in the slightest measure.
Even the smallest efforts do make a difference that's why I say, start with water. Try that for thirty days, if you don't stick to it everyday don't beat yourself up. Just remind yourself, oh yeah- I did want to do this. And keep going. It's not about getting 30 days in a row, it's not about perfection. It's about giving your body what it needs.
And then stack on, hey I think I might take a walk today. You know, small things. I'll do ten push ups. I'll try this, I'll try that. here and there speckle it in.
And that's steps toward a healthier life style, that's accomplishing something and you'll feel good about the efforts you did make and want to continue trying more things in the future.
Don't think about weight. Think about heath. Think about how you feel. Think about how you will feel 30 years from now. Make life easier on yourself by being a little more responsible for your health and making an effort to take care of your insides. They exist too ya know. And they're really, really important- and really fragile.