Turncoat said:
These "just admit"s seems more like what you'd prefer to be the case.
You know... I'm interested in one thing..
What would you consider sufficient compensation for you to comply?
With what?
Truth or dare.
You're still on that?
You're still on that?
I'm more interested in why you find it so difficult to comply with simple requests..
You're still on that?
I'm more interested in why you find it so difficult to follow demands..
Is it really that interesting?
Requests, demands... Whatever you call it. You won't even say what you find so abhorrent about it.
Do I really need to? You see it.
Why do I even try to help you?
It's all for that round of Truth or Dare from ages ago that someone else stole from you.
How is your transition going?
Are you dirty minded? Like hypersexual? Idk if those are the right words but I notice a lot of the crossdressers and trans people I see on discord and reddit are extremely sexual people, so much so that it seems to be a big part of their identity and the way they percieve themselves as the opposite sex. It makes sense in a way given for some I imagine the sexual dimension of their transition can be a big hurdle.
How is your transition going?
Poorly. This was supposed to be the year, I finally sorted most of my shit out, and then we hit COVID. Once (if) this passes I'll be trying to start then with sperm stored for a yearly fee.
Behavior-wise there's still a few kinks to work out, chemically I haven't even begun. I tried to get into the steps last year and found myself feeling lost over what didn't seem nearly as confusing when explaining it to other people.
IMing one of my old roommates who's transitioned had me gain super basic advice, and I was like "It can't be as easy as calling the local hospital wtf?".
Are you dirty minded?
Yeah, but turning it into humor and not being the one to act on it first seems to make it socially acceptable.
When I'm displaying myself that way, it's inviting, while if I were to move on others with those thoughts it'd be 'beneath' me or some nonsense.
Like hypersexual?
Without alcohol or some other drugs to help me, I can find myself masturbating three to seven times a day.
Whatever's doing it is likely connected to the Insomnia and episodes, as those having spikes and drops shows changes in the behavior.
Idk if those are the right words but I notice a lot of the crossdressers and trans people I see on discord and reddit are extremely sexual people
As much as it fits me, there are plenty who go into it over other fixations within the genders. A lot of what I see stems from youthful stories where they were expected to act against their own urges as a matter of culture's perception on gender, based on how it's been portrayed through peer modeling, culture, media, etc. If we lived in a more progressive society, we might not have as much Contra-Insecurity.
Many who identify as the opposite gender without sexual inclinations tend to just aim for something more unisexually driven, or just wear the clothes and accessories associated with the gender more neutrally. It could also be that they became extremely sexual in similar ways to homosexual ex-closet dwellers, as I found myself being for a bit once I tried anal for the first time, when I was fucked in a sexy maid outfit, once feminine pet names started sneaking into the bedroom during times where my ego is being mounted, etc.
I also wouldn't say my case is autogynaphilic, but rather one of aesthetic comforts based on the oppressive eyes I think I'm seeing. I care how I see myself, and that shows when I'm around other people, so if I looked closer to how I 'feel' I'd be that much more confident about myself. The roles established through the battle between Estrogen and Testosterone also have already had me blatantly pick a side, and the benefits that follow the trade off are more me than staying in this gross pseudo-masculine shell I've never been fully able to identify with.
Even when I dream, I'm always erring towards feminine themes and appearances. I wake up and feel wrong, and bridging out of this uncanny valley I've been birthed into feels right, while aiming to masculate myself the few times I went on a health kick made me feel sick when I looked in the mirror.
As much as many go into it for sexual reasons, I merely want my inner construct to match the outer chassis. Every time I look at myself it's like I was a Freaky Friday victim at birth or something. Even my behaviors and some physical features scream it. For whatever reason it's one of the few things I've found myself always wanting, even when I was five and envied girls while finding the guys quite alien and unrelatable.
I just... like, I get women, it makes sense, it resonates, while men, like, wtf are men even other than retarded dick monsters? They're ugly and weird, there's nothing about them to embrace or envy, while women aren't like goddesses but they're at least human beings. Give me a man with feminine tendencies, a woman with feminine tendencies, or a high testosterone woman and things'll be great, but a high testosterone man is like entertaining a damaged manchild.
In the end, even if HRT turns out to not fix this, not doing HRT isn't fixing it either. I frankly just want to climb out of this uncanny valley and have people think at first glance that there's a woman in front of them, even if they keep being like "But you're a dude this is so weird!" from finding themselves tricked for a moment physically. They can keep reminding me of my birth gender as long as I can see that their primary view of me is fem-leaning instead of "one of the bros", that's not the issue.
Also if my genetics are any indicator, I should have a half-decent pair of hooters, which will give me all sorts of newer better clothing options. If they don't grow in enough for my liking I'll probably err towards padded bras.
so much so that it seems to be a big part of their identity and the way they percieve themselves as the opposite sex.
It makes sense in a way given for some I imagine the sexual dimension of their transition can be a big hurdle.
It's what society and culture has sold us.
If we can get not just a man, but a hetero cis man, to fuck us? It's "confirmation" by society's standards that we're just as attractive and successful as a cisgendered woman.
Naturally there's all sorts of deviants who are all kinds of predatory about this mindset, and they don't mind selling this image to them for the promises that follow Bimbofication. The ones who are primarily attracted to the pain of the Trans community are a dark, insecure bunch that stands to set the demographic back another few decades.
That turned out to be a really insightful and interesting post... How'd it feel to get fucked in a sexy maid outfit?
I just... like, I get women, it makes sense, it resonates, while men, like, wtf are men even other than retarded dick monsters? They're ugly and weird, there's nothing about them to embrace or envy, while women aren't like goddesses but they're at least human beings. Give me a man with feminine tendencies, a woman with feminine tendencies, or a high testosterone woman and things'll be great, but a high testosterone man is like entertaining a damaged manchild.
That turned out to be a really insightful and interesting post...
Did you see how she did it compared to your methods?
How'd it feel to get fucked in a sexy maid outfit?
Pretty damn amazing.
I just... like, I get women, it makes sense, it resonates, while men, like, wtf are men even other than retarded dick monsters? They're ugly and weird, there's nothing about them to embrace or envy, while women aren't like goddesses but they're at least human beings. Give me a man with feminine tendencies, a woman with feminine tendencies, or a high testosterone woman and things'll be great, but a high testosterone man is like entertaining a damaged manchild.I hate to spin this to be all about me again but.. how dare you?
That turned out to be a really insightful and interesting post...
Did you see how she did it compared to your methods?
Wow you're such a spiteful bitch, I'll never compliment you again.
How'd it feel to get fucked in a sexy maid outfit?
Pretty damn amazing.
I bet.
Thankfully for the both of us your T-count's not high.
I eat broccoli every day to lower my estrogen levels.
Can't you tell from how I behave that my T-count is high?
