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Major Major said: 

Hi,

What's up? Let's talk. It's time to impress poeoplepelpleplepleplepleple

Fuck

Man I'm bored. Can you .....................................

Do you know of scarcity mentality? It's like yeah ok this isn't me.

This is me.

This is me.

This is me.

Did something happen with you between now and when the Lunasylum that had you and Cawk shut down? 

Are you really shameless?

No, but it's definitely an aspiration. 

You say you try not to try so hard. If you were shameless... You wouldn't give two shits about being consistent. So why bother?

You're afraid of losing it all aren't you. That's why you can't be shameless, because you're scared. That's why. You're afraid that people get under your skin, but it's really only interesting if we get to see your deepest secrets.

Is that what stops you? 

I'm sorry you had to witness me being a douche to you, I'm sorry about that and all.

This is more offensive with than without the apology, imo. 

Turncoat said: 

Major Major said: 

Hi,

What's up? Let's talk. It's time to impress poeoplepelpleplepleplepleple

Fuck

Man I'm bored. Can you .....................................

Do you know of scarcity mentality? It's like yeah ok this isn't me.

This is me.

This is me.

This is me.

Did something happen with you between now and when the Lunasylum that had you and Cawk shut down?

Existential crisis. Besides, why can't you just understand.....

I love Luna.

Wow I really am shameless now, you jealous?

It's better to be cringy than to be nothing. Ever seen that episode of Better call saul, where the girl... What's that girl's name. I can't remember, something like Tracy or Eric. Lol. Anyway, te lawyer girl. She's on the balcony with..... What's the laywe'rs name? Saul. You can see her character breaking when she takes that bottle and throws it out. Man I'm not very good at explaining this, am I/

She lets go of her need for order by throwing random beer bottles out the balcony. Then she cleans up the mess the next day, and everything returns to normal...> Talk about disappointing.

So anyway, it turns out that I have a weird fetish for little girls. As it turns out, I need nothing except a vagina. I should porobably go to the church and talk to a pastor or something.... "Next up you there Major Major, what's your issue?" Man I wouldn't even know where to start. It would probably be the most awkward 5 hours of my life. 5 hrs cause Pastors' so nice. I should become a pastor, the fucked up shit you probably get to hear... Or maybe it's just me. I'd do it just for that.

Did something happen to me? No. Disappointed? My growth and all that is a facade I'm actually living in my mom's baseement..

Are you really shameless?

No, but it's definitely an aspiration.

Why don't you aspire a bit more towards it. Truth or dare?

You say you try not to try so hard. If you were shameless... You wouldn't give two shits about being consistent. So why bother?

You're afraid of losing it all aren't you. That's why you can't be shameless, because you're scared. That's why. You're afraid that people get under your skin, but it's really only interesting if we get to see your deepest secrets.

Is that what stops you?

Yes, your turn.

I'm sorry you had to witness me being a douche to you, I'm sorry about that and all.

This is more offensive with than without the apology, imo.

LOL

But I'm genuinely feeling bad. It's like I should be clenaing my closet offskeletons and stuff. You're on my "list".

Sincerely,

Major

> Which nickname should I get?

> Major

> No

> Major Major

> Not original enough

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Major Major said: 

Existential crisis. Besides, why can't you just understand.....

I love Luna.

Wow I really am shameless now, you jealous?

You're like me in that you aspire towards it, but can never quite hit the mark. 

You're rigid and logical, and that gets in the way. Even 'logical absurdity' tends to come off as irony. 

It's better to be cringy than to be nothing.

It's better to be authentic. 

Ever seen that episode of Better call saul

I saw the first half of the first season and got distracted. 

She lets go of her need for order by throwing random beer bottles out the balcony. Then she cleans up the mess the next day, and everything returns to normal...> Talk about disappointing.

It could be argued in the voice of Camus that her cleaning it up is itself the absurdity. 

So anyway, it turns out that I have a weird fetish for little girls. As it turns out, I need nothing except a vagina.

Why not go for technology or blow up dolls then? 

Look into teledildonics. 

I should porobably go to the church and talk to a pastor or something.... "Next up you there Major Major, what's your issue?" Man I wouldn't even know where to start. It would probably be the most awkward 5 hours of my life. 5 hrs cause Pastors' so nice.

The point in a confession is over the stress of it more than over the pastor's participation. 

The pastor's effectively just a device, a learning aid. A confession only works as well as your ability to throw yourself into it. 

I should become a pastor, the fucked up shit you probably get to hear... Or maybe it's just me. I'd do it just for that. 

It's the same sort of stuff as any counseling job where a sense of trust is simulated. A therapist, a life coach, even your local palm reader could gather similar data. 

Did something happen to me? No. Disappointed? My growth and all that is a facade I'm actually living in my mom's baseement..

You're presenting with a different set of characteristics compared to how you sounded on her forum's why I ask. 

Are you really shameless?

No, but it's definitely an aspiration.

Why don't you aspire a bit more towards it. Truth or dare?

Because now I'd just be doing it because you thought of it. 

You say you try not to try so hard. If you were shameless... You wouldn't give two shits about being consistent. So why bother?

I'd also not give two shits about being inconsistent in such a model. 

You're afraid of losing it all aren't you.

That's true of anything that investment has been made into. Naturally when you put time into something you want it to feel like it's "for something", and I do have things that through that have left a sense of attachment. 

That's why you can't be shameless, because you're scared.

Some shamelessness is done in response to fear though, and this forum has plenty of expressions of it. 

It's more about if shame is in their framework or not, as once it's there it can find any excuse to make itself known. 

That's why. You're afraid that people get under your skin, but it's really only interesting if we get to see your deepest secrets.

I'm under the impression that I've unveiled a lot. It's not like I need to revisit those moments over and over for some additional form of closure or something. 

Is that what stops you?

Yes, your turn.

It did sound like a you narrative. 

I'm sorry you had to witness me being a douche to you, I'm sorry about that and all.

This is more offensive with than without the apology, imo.

LOL

But I'm genuinely feeling bad.

Why? 

My computer crased and then I gave up because i really didnt want to write it again.... Let me just make a long story short.

You think I care about intellectual pursuits thats funny. All of those posts on reddit were for you, I didnt enjoy one second of writing any of them. Every post... Tailored carefully just for you because you thought I didn't know you stalk them. I'm not full of fluff, witty humor nor desires for intellectual pursuits. I couldn't give two shits about any of that. I'm much more superficial than you or anyone else thinks. I really just want to bang girls, be loved by all and have my feelings be validated. This is the real me..You know absolutely nothing about me.

I write children's books for a living, and I'm penniless as fuck. I've never travelled, I've stayed at home... I never even moved away from my mom's place. All of that crap is just made up... I just wish that someone would do all those things instead of.... yapping their mouth all day. I really want to bash those people's heads in for being such losers.

I don't want a fucking blow up doll you fucking dumbass. I want to be loved by something pure so I can hate myself.

You're shameless because you're scared? So it's just a cop-out...? What a fucking disappointment. I'm me because I want to be me, and I have no trouble being shameless.. You should be more like me. I achieved in 5 minutes what you couldn't achieve in years.

Let go of your attachments.. Noboy but you is trying to build a fucking community here. What do you think you will achieve?

To be frank I don't feel bad at all.. really.. I enjoy trashing you and others... its like a rush of happy chemicals that fill my brain and encourage me to keep doing it... But I want to have a net positive effect on the world. If I attack you seriously, I just shoot myself in the foot. I destroy my other efforts..

Bad Vibes Mickey said: 

> Which nickname should I get?

> Major

> No

> Major Major

> Not original enough

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Hi fat bunny fuck.

<3

Major Major said: 

You think I care about intellectual pursuits thats funny.

What's so funny about it? 

I'm not full of fluff, witty humor nor desires for intellectual pursuits.

The subtext is. 

I couldn't give two shits about any of that. I'm much more superficial than you or anyone else thinks. I really just want to bang girls, be loved by all and have my feelings be validated. This is the real me..You know absolutely nothing about me.

Keep telling yourself that, but you bothered to narrate the experience instead of displaying it naturally. 

Copying the ideas isn't enough, you have to feel them. This is why the best actors are "Method Actors", because they draw from their own experiences. Yours comes off as a dry commentary on ideas that don't quite fit you, it's awkward. 

It's like you're trying to put on someone else's unwashed, filthy shoes, but you're worried about their foot grime getting on your feet. You need to let that mold fester into your own feet if you want to wear the shoes they do. You need to let your sense of self truly absorb theirs if you want to convincingly play the part, otherwise you'll always just appear to be -trying- to. 

I really want to bash those people's heads in for being such losers.

What do you have against them? 

I don't want a fucking blow up doll you fucking dumbass. I want to be loved by something pure so I can hate myself.

If the world as you know it is just a projection, a reality echolocation where you can only see that which you already have...

...how are you supposed to find someone 'so pure' if you can't fathom it yourself? Once you'd understand said "purity" it'd cease being pure and instead will express flaws that put you on their level. 

It's the idea behind "Never Meet Your Heroes", it's easier to be impressed with their archetypal build than the flawed, marred reality that cast that shadow. Purity is like Perfection, or Magic, you won't find it, you'll only ever be seeking it. 

You're shameless because you're scared? So it's just a cop-out...? What a fucking disappointment. I'm me because I want to be me, and I have no trouble being shameless.. You should be more like me. I achieved in 5 minutes what you couldn't achieve in years.

I'm not shameless, I aspire to be. 

Let go of your attachments.. Noboy but you is trying to build a fucking community here. What do you think you will achieve?

I'm more privy to thinking that it's worth finding more things to attach to, but naturally that comes from detachment being the default. 

If you're naturally attached to the world, it'll be harder to detach, but the reverse is just as true and valid towards the human experience. 

To be frank I don't feel bad at all.. really.. I enjoy trashing you and others... its like a rush of happy chemicals that fill my brain and encourage me to keep doing it... But I want to have a net positive effect on the world. If I attacked you seriously, I would be shooting myself in the foot. I would destroy my other efforts..

You only feel okay because you don't feel like it's "you" doing it. 

Wow, you really are jealous. I was joking, but now it's clear.... Why can't you just be happy for me. that I am what you could never dream of being? Your whole post is one huge projection..

You're like those Indian farmers that can't admit they have no clue about what they're talking about.... I have no reason to copy anyone... Who would want to be anyone but me?

Turncoat said:

I would do it but then I would do it just because you asked la la

Waah I won't do it because you asked me to. Stop being a child and play some truth and dare with me... Did you read it online that people lose interest in you if you give things too easily? Stop trying so fucking hard. Truth or dare?

You want to become shameless so you can hide your insecurities... Don't compare us.

Major Major said: 

Stop being a child and play some truth and dare with me... Did you read it online that people lose interest in you if you give things too easily? Stop trying so fucking hard. Truth or dare?

Does this method for getting the things you want usually work for you? 

You want to become shameless so you can hide your insecurities... Don't compare us.

Wouldn't being shameless be the opposite of hiding insecurities?