Sometimes living feels like a curse. I'm not capable of maintaining relationships but am capable of feeling alone
What's your curse
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1/3/2020 6:27:09 PM
Why not instead learn to play the game of causality, instead of merely being it's spectator?
Ę̵̚x̸͎̾i̴͚̽s̵̻͐t̷͐ͅe̷̯͠n̴̤̚t̵̻̅i̵͉̿a̴̮͊l̵͍̂ ̴̹̕D̵̤̀e̸͓͂t̵̢͂e̴͕̓c̸̗̄t̴̗̿ï̶̪v̷̲̍é̵͔
Some sense of deep underlying negativity. I remember when I got my college acceptance letter, my family was excited, and baffled that I was nonchalant about it. My own experience of getting that could have been summed up as, "well, this is what's next." It's been that way for a very long time.
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1/3/2020 11:07:11 PM
My own experience could of getting that could have been summed up as, "well, this is what's next." It's been that way for a very long time.
I found comfort in that feeling, like everything was following some sort of predictable script or path.
If there's anything about childhood that I miss, it's the notion that the world around me was set up in such a way that my itinerary was being handled for me.
Ę̵̚x̸͎̾i̴͚̽s̵̻͐t̷͐ͅe̷̯͠n̴̤̚t̵̻̅i̵͉̿a̴̮͊l̵͍̂ ̴̹̕D̵̤̀e̸͓͂t̵̢͂e̴͕̓c̸̗̄t̴̗̿ï̶̪v̷̲̍é̵͔