Xena stated: source post
Ha. Finally found the vid that gives a perfect portrayal of the mental clutter that happens with glitchy attention filters in the brain: This is how it affects me, at least.
Note: Pink and I had a lengthy discussion about the difference between mental clutter and psychosis driven hallucinations after I posted this. Remember that what clutters up my thinking is all stuff that is happening right now, ad verifiable by third party consensus. Or it's an echo of smthg that happened yesterdy or last week or however many years ago (memories) and still verifiable by 3rd party consensus. There are also plans and dreams and imaginings going on in there. But they are either not real, or are somewhere on the spectrum of possibility (not fully real just yet. ) That is the difference between a glitchy noise filter and psychotic delusions/ hallucinations.
I have the tools to be quite eloquent. I just have to work at it bc I have all this noise to sift through to find the right words. Hence the fish analogy :)
Xena stated: source post
AerynFrellMe stated: source post
Damn. You're making me work now xP
You want to know what goes through my head? This one is pretty close. Me trying to sit through a math class. lol
Pay attention to the images and ignore the talkbabble. They're all memories and they all come from somewhere. I like that the people who made this vid chose moments in popular entertainment that are easily recognizable (at least in the US.) My own personal talkbabble is fact sorting for the most part. It's jumbled and cluttered, but is usually about stuff that could easily fetch a good deal of third party agreement.
The difficulty is in prioritizing the mass of incoming and outgoing information. It gets easier as we get older, but I still have to bite my tongue to stop myself from blurting out inappropriate things that nobody in my immediate environment gives a shit about.
The inside of my head is quite entertaining, tho. Sometimes I can just turn off the tv and computer and surf on the kooky images that flood my mindscape. :)
interesting. so you get voices in your head?