I am really torn apart. I mean, we used to hang out a lot when he lived next to me but to be real even thou I knew he liked me a lot, I found him annoying and a few times he was actually enjoyable.
Do you know that kind of person that wants to hang out with you all day long, but they are just annoying and you hardly have fun with them ? Yeah that's him.
My other problem is that like I've said over and over I am broke right now. I mean, I am his godfather and I will probably give nothing for them while everyone will be pilling up gifts and they will know I went there empty handed.
The other problem is that everyone else is either married or with long term gf. I can't show up there with my fuck buddy, I am pretty sure there will be convos that will become a trap for me like " How long you guys have been dating ? Ooh, soon it's your turn guys. "
I've been procrastinating this for so long, but I thinking that probably one week before I will call in really really sick with a fucked up disease and not go. But at the same time people will start seeing me after that more differently, I mean, some people go even sick to weddings since it's important.
Fuck, why that fucking fuck had to pick me. Fucking fat fuck. EDIT 1: I am also worried because there will be some booze and I will probably drink more than I should. And they are middle hardcore Christians, they will probably put drinks in the party because they know they will be some of our relatives that are hardcore drinking.