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medbedhead stated: source post

So I will post here.

I have a hard time writing letters and not sending them. I don’t buy it.

I met a guy in the summer after I started college at seventeen at a Rainbow Gathering across the country. I don’t really think about him anymore.

He’s in the public eye now. Regularly gets photographed. One year I came home from college and I was upset, so I tore everything up, his letters to me, photos from a birthday party where he had his arm around me and my friend. That I didn’t understand, but it wasn’t anything really. There is a bit more to the story, but I am not saying.

My advice to anyone in a similar situation would be to save everything.

I do have some photos from the Rainbow Gathering but my life has taken a completely different turn, you know?

I wrote him a couple times. Wrote his dad. Maybe one day our paths will cross.

Dear Remmy,

I feel that you and me are extreme opposites and yet, there is something about you that makes my world gravity around your persona.

I would not call this love, neither admiration. The closest I could describe is envy. Ignorance is a bless and you are a very blessed person.

I wish that, and yet I can not have. That drives me crazy, all I can do is stay close to you to have a glimpse of it.

Sincerely , your dearest friend,

Alex

rachel, 

i miss you every day

if i had a time machine i'd have cared about you and gotten you help, im sure youd like to know i feel guilty

des

Well.. Now you got me thinking really hard. I cannot say he shaped me, he was more an interesting character that I just could not relate whatever he felt or imagine in his mind. He had a weird image of each of us, specially me. He saw me like the worst of the worst, like I had no real motive at all to be bad. He was like implying that I was so bad, because I actually was really bad inside.  Like no bad childhood, normal upbringing. It stuck in my head. Maybe, I guess I just enjoy being bad and that's what I always wanted to be since a kid. He said I was the scum of the scum for that.

For Brandon Mccartney,

I don't even know where to start. You've been such a positive influence on my life and have changed my perspective entirely. Although part of me feels you are genuinely retarded, but still you consistently promote nothing but selfless teachings. I touches me, because I believe you when you say you have nothing left but to do good for people. You're one of the first people that shattered the idea that everyone sees things the way I do, a fundamental concept I learned late and maybe would've learned later if not for you. Years upon years of hard work that have gone unrewarded, you still go out of your way to promote those values, all while under the trolling guise that's made me laugh countless times. For that, I'll be a lifelong fan of Lil B music.  Thank you Based-God

If you're familiar with Lil B, you probably think I'm trolling but im not. After buying this man's book, listening to his speeches, this guy really loves people. He wasn't always this way, and was facing 10 years at one point in jail, it's been a long road for him. Skip to 2:58 and you'll see a grown man crying in a pet store because he truly loves the world and the people in it. He's the only person I can relate to on that level. Completely retarded, but a heart of gold

This isn't just me that's noticing this either. So far the list of colleges Lil B has been paid to speak at are:

• University of Nevada Reno
• University of Florida
• University of California at Los Angeles(UCLA)  
• Carnegie-Mellon University
• Massachusetts Institute of Technology(MIT)
• UC Riverside
• Virginia Tech University
• New York University

I still have that book of yours sitting around here. 

I've got a second copy

Everyone thinks I'm someone else at the moment so it's a good opportunity to be honest

I thought you were the coolest when I was in school. I told my friends about your car.

You were always "on the other side of the country for work". I knew that was bullshit. I used to pretend I didn't notice mom had been crying because I didn't wanna embarrass her. 

When I was older, I pretended I was happy to see you because I didn't want to make you feel bad. But I wasn't happy to see you. I don't give a shit what you're doing these days. You had your chance.

I'll take your money but I still don't give a shit.

And when you die I'll be there. And I'll pay for your funeral because someone has to. But I won't ever be like you.

I hope that keeps you awake at night.