Tell me your bad reactions to medication, either legal or illegal. This is a selfish post, I need to feel better about myself in the midst of my own self loathing.
Amphetamines. I calm down to fuck when i'm on them but have a hypomanic episode when i come down and i'm very vulnerable to amphetamine psychosis.
I fucking love sulphate, dexy's and blueys. Oh cruel fate.
Seroquel/Quetiapine enhances my inherent aggression significantly.
Haloperidol/Haldol induces dyskinesia and brutal tardive dyskinesia.
Fluoxetine/Prozac induces mania and/or mild psychosis.
I did itch when I truly took too much. This time just felt like the worst headache imaginable and I was manic as hell.
Also, lol @ your other examples as I've experienced reactions to fluoxetine and seroquel in the last year. Seroquel scares me. I don't understand why it's a legal medication. That is a terrifying drug.
So let me start this off by saying I absolutely avoid doctors whenever possible.
But, because sometimes I absolutely have to see a doctor I usually request female staff only. So for the last 4 years that I've been made to see a doctor they've all been female.
I have really fucking painful migraines that are no bueno. The aura shit that comes with it sometimes, also not fun. Imagine doing something while the side of your head throbs in staccato and now you're smelling melting electrical outlet and burning wires with a side of Turkey breast. Nausea full force.
Or imagine someone pressing a spear into your skull while your left eye swims in the most uncomfortable saran wrap like liquid only now you're hearing some weird shit and you have no idea what's going on so you just want to crawl under your desk and cry because you are hearing people stomp in your otherwise empty office and your brain is trying to kill you. Yeah its like that.
So I was referred to a neurologist, I was told they were female and their name was female sounding so I went with it. Day of the visit I'm sitting in the White Room and a lady comes over and starts asking basic questions (smoker? No. Sexually active? No. ect.) I'm like okay she's okay.
In comes the actual Doctor and he's a dude.
I have this thing with people touching me and its worse with dudes. I wasn't expecting this. He starts touching me like he's so familiar and entitled to and I'm trying so hard to not lose my shit and at some point he started talking but all I could hear was the wind rushing in my ears like I'd just open the window going 90 on the highway despite the fact that we were in an office with closed windows and the hum of the AC was a pleasant drone.
His hands are on my arms and then they were on my jaw then pulling me forward and I was feeling sick and cold and I'm just like, frozen and at some point I heard him ask 'why are you tearing up? Are you having' and then he starts yelling for the lady that came in first and the first thing I do when I see her is to start crying and making this gasping noise I hadn't made or heard in a while.
Idk when but they both just kinda stood back and kept telling me to look at things and that it was okay. theres a sense of something just enclosing you when it happens and you feel like you can't breathe and that you're about to die. The breathe is knocked out of you. After a while She asked me if i could explain what happened and if I wanted to see the doctor again while continuously handing me tissues. And i could feel the pressing need to cry again and gnashed out a no thank you And she just kinda looked concerned and asked if I would see him if she were conducting the physical. I just wanted to get out and this lady wasn't having it.
At the end she ended up touching me all over and doing reflex while Doc stood in the back all awkward on a counter murmuring things for her to do while I gnashed and sniffled and when we finished up I was prescribed;
Topamax 25mg, 1 tab every 6 hours for migraines for two weeks. Not exceeding 2 a day and then another visit after 2 weeks.
The side effects blah blah blah if you have severe pain in your eye stop use immediately and call Doctor.
I went to pharmacy and then home and locked myself in my room while contemplating how to kill myself and took a muscle relaxant while I laid in bed feeling like what is best described as a puddle of skin, cartilage and agar.
So I was at lunch when I got the prescription filled and took it going back work. By the time I'd taken the second pill that day I'd gotten a bloody nose and it felt like someone was trying to force a condom onto my head. Or a rubber band. Your choice in visual really.
I didn't worry about it, bloody noses wasn't in the side effects(yeah it was I just didn't know what the fuck epistaxis was) so then driving home I was kinda all "uh wow that car looks like a blurry blob. Wow that highway looks like someone with Parkinson's painted the lane breaks"
Getting home I was irritable and dizzy and I wanted to lay down in the fetal position and that's exactly what I did. And then my sisters BF walked into my room because PS4 and the fucking savage opened the door so wide the bright hallway light spilled into my room and hit me in the face.
So now not only was the an invisible rubber band trying to burst my head open but there was a particularly large invisible rusty needle poking my eye like my eyeball owed it money.
And now there was light. In my face. I don't cuss IRL because reasons but this fucking matted ass donkey looking sasquatch walked into my room to take the PS4 to presumably play with his friends (IDC I use it for netflix, Hulu and Amazon) while fucking yelling, if he could use it to play COD.
I was snarling because I was in pain "what the fuck you god damn heathen shit get the fuck out." and he just kind did a weird dance and walked out.
So I ended up sleeping in the corner of my closet because people don't understand pain or how to lower their voice volume box
The pill warning said to call my doctor if I experienced any pain in my eye and stop use as this could be the symptom of an underlying problem or whatever. So I've stopped use and haven't called my doctor.
TL;DR Yeah aggressiveness and pain in the eye from medication used for epilepsy to treat migraine pain.
Self loathing? Didn't you get enough male attention in chat today?
My worst was mixing xan with perc (oxy), at some point I was resigned to death and lying in bed trying to make most of my every breathe since I could only take a breath every 30-50 seconds constantly feeling out of breath. I wanted to move my legs and hands and stand up but couldn't do anything with my body and it didn't help that when I opened my eyes I only saw sparkling colors and black either. A friend had the idea to pull out my tongue and since then I knew to not mix anything