The ones I experience most often are pride, excitement, frustration, glee, mania, shame, envy, humiliation and the ones I rarely experience are joy, grief, guilt, affection, and things of that sort. I wish I was just being edgy but it sucks not having the full range to experience. I'd like to minimize my shame (I'm constantly on a rope trying to not validate the voice in my head that I'm a pathetic and evil monstah) and rage (easily triggered) and increase joy and calm (less paranoia and a less depressing outlook on thing)
I think I've felt nearly every emotion to some extent. However, I simply can't say for certain, for I know that I think my "emotional dictionary" isn't quite the same or as in-depth as many people's I encounter. If boredom or aimlessness or whatever you want to call that indistinct and mildly uncomfortable feeling of anything that's happening isn't really what you can even force yourself to take full interest in, then that's the best way to describe how I feel when I'm not feeling anything else -- which is pretty much all the time. It is a fairly big motivating factor for a lot of my behavior. One feeling I'm certain I've likely never felt is excitement. Ever. My mind has a nasty habit of reducing nearly anything to its bare elements and renders it into components that seem mundane under that microscope. I live in my mind. Why do you think I'm "schizo"? While I'm never excited, curiosity still percolates inside me. The hope of finding anything magical or mysterious has all but left my mind, but like a true feline curiosity is what ever really gets me to do anything ever... And usually gets me into trouble.
During a psychotic episode that I've described already, I've felt an immaculate and supernal awareness of totality, wholeness and acceptance. Life, the universe and everything was fine just as it was and it should not be any different than it was either. It's very hard to describe the flood of probably every positive feeling I never felt before turned up to full volume and consume my entire being. I was borderline manic, but not "crazy". I was almost too positive and warm. I wish I could revisit that feeling, but I worry that it would likely spin me out of control and crash and burn.
I'm already growing weary of explaining all this, but I thought it might be helpful on some level...
Anyway, I definitely possess the schizoid lack of affectation toward praise and/or criticism for the most part. I can ignore anything and persistently feel whatever I feel. Some people say that's just being stubborn. I think it's because I prefer to realize emotions are mine and I hold the lever on them, despite the fact that it's the "outside" which pushes and molds them. What kind of feelings would we have with nothing to feel them about?
Emotions are emotions inside or out. Though I try to separate intellectual process from emotional response and so forth, the truth is that stuff is lumped into one signal. There may be pieces that connect into the whole, but the pieces are not the whole. You feel, think and do all in the same medium of awareness and environment. I would like to allow instinct to get by self-analysis from time to time.
Green and Blue...
I tend to be submissive so I take it I tend to have a mix of fear and trust towards individuals in most cases. It is not black and white so it could move more towards fear or trust depending on experiences. It can be physically painful and manifest to a spike feeling.
I tend to feel grief or boredom often enough.
Yellow and Orange...
I do tend to feel joy and anticipation on the occasion. It does tend to be a lot more intense. I mean it is more like ecstasy than mere joy. I end up feeling like whole inside. I feel the equivalence of a gentle summer breeze inside of my chest.
Red...
I rarely ever get angry anymore. It is hard to piss me off or get on my bad side. I feel pride and I smirk knowing that the person will face dark times.
What emotions do you feel most often? Content, happiness, anger, and emptiness, and apathy
Which ones do you rarely experience? Embarrassment
Are there any particular emotions you don't detect in yourself at all? Sadness, guilt, empathy, sympathy, remorse
Are there any you'd like to minimize? Anger
Any you'd like to experience more frequently and/or more intensely? Happiness
Also, are emotions and sensitivities the same thing? Or is the former when the latter is expressed outwardly? Sensitivities have to do with emotions.
What emotions do you feel most often?
Fatigue, boredom, amusement but also genuine chuckles, camraderie and love/friendship. Interest (mostly in the outdoors and the birds and nearby wildlife rn) and a quirky compulsion to sing :D << I believe the term for that emotion is tickled.
Which ones do you rarely experience?
Sexual love, extreme desire aimed at a specific person. Jealousy.
Are there any particular emotions you don't detect in yourself at all?
No. But name some and I'll let you know if I feel them. Who knows? I may be forgetting some.
Are there any you'd like to minimize?
No. They all serve their purpose. I'm more than capable of turning down the volume on a particular emotion if it happens at an inconvenient time.
Any you'd like to experience more frequently and/or more intensely?
No. External circumstances play in to my moods. If my mood is not quite right, it's my body telling me that I need to change smthg in my environment.
Also, are emotions and sensitivities the same thing? Or is the former when the latter is expressed outwardly?
No. Sensitivities cause emotional responses. Aspies are sensitive to noise and get stressed out by it.
I'm prone to overthinking and am therefore prone to mental fatigue, which in turn causes mild grouchiness and a short fuse when it comes to gum flapping idiotic people who won't stfu.
Some people are sensitive to ugliness. Blood and gore make them cry.
Still others have sensitive tummies. ^ The above disgusts them and makes them vaguely nauseous.
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Are all of the emotions color coded to indicate correlation? Because I honestly don't see how majority of these correlate. I didn't know majority of these were even considered emotions either.
Yes and yes.
This thread has made me realize that there is most definitely something wrong with me. It's as if I'm emotionally inept. Do people really feel that much all the time? That's just excessive.
Nah. It's just like being tall or having big boobs.We don't notice it as much as people who are not like us notice it. We're used to it bc we live inside the emotional body all the time. It's like driving, I guess. It's only awkward when you first start to learn the rules of the machine. Once you learn how to operate it you don't have to try so hard.
But no, we don't usually feel all of those emotions at the same time. Usually only one or 2. Sometimes 3 or 4 during busy times of year/ life.
I can be a very emotional person, but it's 100% hormonal. When I'm ovulating I could rip the heads off kittens with my bare hands and eat them raw with a side of tabasco sauce, but a couple weeks later the sight of a fluffy little thing will bring tears to my eyes because all I want to do is be its mammy and love it for ever and ever.
I now have medication to take for this, which, although it's too early to say, seems to be doing some good. And awareness of what it is helps no end.