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I'm not scared of death, per se.  It might be a fear of the unknown, sort of.  I have a very palpable self-conscious awareness of reality that comes and goes.  I am convinced nothing I try and figure out about it will prove effective in mitigating any surprise.  Beyond this life, there is a realness as real as this is.  I simply cannot penetrate the mystery and seek ways to escape the crushing, relentless bouts of existential crisis I have nearly every day.  Sometimes I wish I could just die and get the shit over with.

This awareness has changed my value systems to where I just don't feel connected to the flow of ignorance that it seems the tide of humanity is swept up in.

not living doesnt sound any worse than living so i dont really care

I wouldn't consider death itself as a bad thing, but it just makes everything pointless.

Death isn't worth fearing, but I will try to avoid it at all costs until life isn't worth living.

I'm rather excited by the prospect of death. It's not that I dislike my life or want to die soon; I'm just thrilled by the prospect of life after death and the unknown. Because of this, I like to partake in many rather dangerous activities that give me the thrill of death on the horizon. I don't care how I die as I have learned the secrets of disassociation with pain. 

I'm supposed to be OK with something trying to kill me? Noo, I'm so not OK with that.

Part of me looks forward to death because a lot of life is suffering, but part of me sees this life as unique and valuable and wants to see how the story ends. I am like someone who plays a video game, and is hesitant to hit the reset button, but will hit it if I totally mess up too much

I do not fear death. I only fear certain ways to die. In the end I think life is actually more scary.

Existence is the challenge. Death is capitulation to reality and there is no choice in that matter. 

In the end I think life is actually more scary.

Agree, at the same time, a person in fear of the hereafter and eternal hell fire, may also be quaking in their boots. 

Nobody knows with certainty, so I will load my bases while I can. At the same time, I think God can read the intent behind choices of actions, so there may yet be some leeway. The bible would suggest as much. 

Yeah the uncertainty of death can be scary.