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Tolerance and genuine concern for others. Being genuine in general, really. So far it's not working out the way I thought it would. People are more comfortable with superficiality than they might realize. 

My trust issues and this ugly need to posses things(people) and my need to avoid confrontation

Edit: My inability to let go of things that don't matter, my spiteful nature and my 'no begging' thing that I don't even fully understand

trust. i need to work on trust.

i dont trust anyone

You already know. I'm overly empathetic. It's horrible and I wish I could stop. 

Why limit the issues to just one? In all honesty, I was stalked and his behavior and explanations were very similar to what she's exhibited. Was I triggered? Maybe. I just know I'll never forget how helpless I felt when someone had me in their crosshairs and there was nothing i could do in order to deter them. 

How I deal psychologically with failure. Practically speaking I'm good at dealing with it, I analyze and try to pinpoint what went wrong, when something went wrong, what could/should have been done and how this should affect my decision making in the future. In that sense I do learn and get stronger from all sorts of negative outcomes at least in a practical sense.

However psychologically I have extreme issues with failure whenever I fail at something I tend to overreact a lot. Back when I worked in finance (IB) and I screwed up my first major task as a VP which led to me quitting out of shame for not living up to the expectations I had set for myself. It's in part due to the fact that I'm so dependent on keeping up my image to those around me so although I might crush myself when something goes wrong, everyone else is cheering me on.

The cringe on this thread is unbearable

I want to try and understand why you're being triggered by this person. I have been watching her/him (?) more since we spoke, and I have to be honest... I don't get it. I'm inclined to believe you have a distorted view of this person and their intentions. If there is a creepiness factor in there, I'm just not seeing how on earth, and you can't say it's because I haven't experienced what you have. Are you sure you're seeing what you think you're seeing?

Acute bronchitis.