Who believes that what Mirage describes above, is just normal infatuation? I don't think it is but I may not be the right person to make that judgment. I doubt if I've felt a "normal" kind of anything my whole life.
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ImNotHer: Maybe it's about loss of control.- 3:21 Mirage: How so?
- 3:24 ImNotHer: Well maybe you're angry because infatuation means someone has a kind of power over you.
- 3:24 Mirage: Maybe
- 3:24 Mirage: I dont think thats it
- 3:24 Mirage: It feels like desire
- 3:24 Mirage: But hate
- 3:25 ImNotHer: Are you sure you're feeling hate? Because that word is used too loosely.
- 3:25 Mirage: Maybe its just that all my feelings are "plagued" by the hatred i always had in me
- 3:26 Mirage: Pretty sure yes
- 3:26 Mirage: Its rage
- 3:26 Mirage: Violence
- 3:26 Mirage: I want to kill her
- 3:26 Mirage: As much as fuck her
- 3:26 ImNotHer: That's amazing.
- 3:27 ImNotHer: We need to figure this out.
- 3:27 ImNotHer: I have to make a thread.
- 3:27 Mirage: I want to kiss her lovingly and rip off her face
- 07 Mirage: I'm trying to make sense of why i feel this deep devouring hatred everytime i'm infatuated
- 3:07 Mirage: Its disturbing
- 3:07 Mirage: But so delicious
- 3:08 ImNotHer: Let's make a thread about it.
- 3:08 Mirage: I dont do posts
- 3:08 Mirage: Leaves a mark
- 3:10 ImNotHer: It's going to be left somewhere now. I have to...
- 3:10 Mirage: Lol
- 3:10 Mirage: Why?
- 3:12 Mirage: Kay
- 3:13 ImNotHer: Because those kind of words are too good to waste.
- 3:14 Mirage: That good?
- 3:14 Mirage: But do you feel it?
- 3:14 ImNotHer: For me it was.
- 3:14 Mirage: Am I weird again
- 3:15 ImNotHer: I think I understand where you're coming from.
- 3:18 ImNotHer: I'm an Aspie though, so I might be just thinking I know because I understand obsession and the madness that comes with it. But you might be describing something completely different.
- 3:19 Mirage: I'd think its jeslousy but i could have her easily
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I think that's closer to the right idea. To me it looks like the very human desire to corrupt and ruin. And that's easily applied in a sexual context. But to some extent you have to already have that kind of hate in you to think the way this guy does, towards yourself (or your impulses) and/or others.
ImNotHer stated: source post
Who believes that what Mirage describes above, is just normal infatuation? I don't think it is but I may not be the right person to make that judgment. I doubt if I've felt a "normal" kind of anything my whole life.
It for some reason makes me think of either self-blame, self-correcting, or self-loathing. Something about himself as opposed to her.
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