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I used to be terrified of mannequins when I was a child.  Especially, the headless ones.

Transistors on the back of my cable box melting.

I used to live near oil pumps. Their rhythmic creaking freaked me out and felt evil.

I was in the checkout lane of a store (I must have been 3 or 4), and was pretty sure if I started to mess with the numbers used to enter a debit card PIN, the store would explode.

I used to have satellite TV. When the sun rays blocked the transmission, an animation would play. A 15 second video would loop of the Sun with a burglar mask on, accompanied by some very bizarre music with horns. I felt my satellite box was a malicious entity.

TVs from the 80s would retain some light for a bit after you flipped your room light off. I had a paranoia that my TV was an entity that watched me, because it remained lit for a while after I turned it and my lights off.

A few times when I was looking up at the stars, a terror struck me that gravity might reverse, and I'd get sucked up into the atmosphere and get incinerated.

Cracks in the sidewalk, among other crazy ocd bullshit. 

JimSavage stated: source post

Others reading my mind

I have that one too. I used to practice mental static and purposely boring surface thoughts to try to make it harder to be read (the Star Wars Knights of the Old Republic mind defense). I'd also try thinking "I know you're in my head" while watching their faces for tells.

Some still persist

Others reading my mind / seeing what's in my imagination

Being caught by djinni (we were scared alot with them by adults)

Spirits attacking me in the dark (I have to keep the lights up to sleep)

That if I think negatively of something it won't work or give me what I want (might be related to childhood)

For awhile I was scared of the stove. I thought it would explode into a million pieces and one of the pieces would impale me and cook me from the inside. I also thought quicksand was going to be a big problem in my adult life.

Most people tend to have some irrational fears and a few ocd quirks, but as long as it doesn't control their lives and as long as there isn't an unusual number of them, it'll be excused as a non-issue.

My cases are disorderly and symptomatic, showing up stronger and in higher frequencies to a disorderly degree at points in my life. I have more than that list I worry over, but it'd take forever to type all of that out on a phone.

Is this a symptom of something if it persists into adulthood?

- that things/aliens came in my room and watched while I slept

- mind being read

They weren't so much fears as paranoia, I think there's a difference anyway. As in, I wasn't afraid so much as I thought it happened. I actually don't remember feeling fearful/afraid as a kid. More irrational type of fears came later in life, like snakes/bears/heights

I used to be a little more worried about heights when I was younger, but it never stopped me from recklessly climbing things.  What I discovered that it wasn't a fear of heights.  I was never scared looking down from high up, but more when I looked up and couldn't see the ground beneath.  It would give me sudden disequilibrium and sudden panic.

I'm surprised at the number and extent of fears here, tbh.  As paranoid as I am, I thought I would have more drastic fears than what I've seen here.  However, perhaps it's because I don't find my fears all that "irrational" most of the time?  I just find the distinction interesting and puzzling.

I have always feared the literal 'nothing". Not death by itself, but the lack of anything.