How well were you acquainted with the 3 guys? Did you know all of them and if so did you know either a little better, or were you closer to either of the 3 before this incident?
"So could this in anyway be connected to sociopathy? I don't know how most people are."
im not a sociopath (not even close, i dont think), and i relate to everything you wrote.
kinda runs into confirmation bias territory, when you start attributing what i would consider semi-normal ways of being to a label, just because it would explain a portion of it
"There is this commonly held notion that sociopaths don't experience fear."
Yeah, because people don't do any research.
about 50% of men with antisocial personality disorder (APD) present a comorbid anxiety disorder
I am too exhausted right now to delve into high-functioning vs low-functioning psychopathy and its relation to fear/anxiety.
MissCommunication stated: source post
I heard that people who have experienced childhood abuse often can't judge dangerous situations and therefore put themselves in harms way, thereby re-living more abuse.
For me personally, I know full and well that I will be in a dangerous situation, I don't know if I am subconciously trying to relive said abuse. But that's just the way I tick.