You're a faggot.
But also probably an emotional sadist. It happens. Enjoy it. My mom tantrums more every year. She never had a lot of control over me after my mid/late teens but she had an illusion. It's gone now and she is crazy over it. It's not on,up over me, though. As she ages she loses her abilities in general to control, her mind is slipping. When it isn't stressful (like when the cops aren't called in public), it's great fun to watch.
Unsure whether it's normal or if anyone else can relate but I seem to deliver a great deal of relief and joy from negative charged events. Just had a nasty fight with Dad (he's having more and more tantrums lately due to his loss of power over me he had while I was a child) and some cruel exchanges were had and also discovered my sister was severely mistreated by mom and I am powerless about it but I found myself feeling a sense of calm and serenity wash over me and I feel like talking to everyone and spreading love now, maybe I need this stuff somehow, some type of drama and tension, any opinions appreciated