Sociopath Community

I'm not going to stop posting here as usual just because some dude decided to commit a murder. If you'd rather talk about that, then go ahead. I don't give a shit.

I'm not trying to steal the limelight. It's just an issue I'd like to discuss because it's how I'm feeling at the moment. It's how I've been feeling for a long time actually.

Feel free to ignore this thread from this point on if you don't care to answer the questions which, by the way, are not even about me. They're about how you feel.

I dont understand people in general because of the fact i am so different than them. Social media like FB makes it worse. It really  reminds me how alone in thought i am. So i dont use shit like that anymore. 

Sometimes i think people think as i do, but are to afraid to express it out of fear of what others will think. That in itself makes me hate society.

I honestly  believe i am above everyone else. I have always been like that. Because people dont think as i do.  I think thats why.

I play so many roles im not sure who i am sometimes. Only when im alone do i feel a sense of peace. The longer im forced to be in social situations the more aggressive i becom.

In those times i miss my cell.

I relate to the trapped cat feeling. The heavier this sensation, the more destructive my impulses seem to become.

i definitely mellowed out in my 20s, so far. I wonder if it was hormonal because I had a terrible temper in my pre-teen and teen years. I don't exactly remember childhood feelings of anger or hostility. I do remember actions. 

Now my temper flares only with a few certain people and a few certain intoxicants. Day to day, I feel less hostile and less angry than any other time in life. I feel mild confusion at some people's tempers. For example, at a stop light yesterday, my mother leaned from the car and yelled at people for being too close behind us.

The society and humanity part is harder for me to answer. I don't care, generally, even when others disagree with my opinions. 

Just couldn't let him have all the attention, could you

While I was in prison I met a guy who did 40 some odd years. He was getting out, but he didn't want out for some reason. After that long, he was pretty set in his ways. He said that as soon as he got out he was going to kill someone to come back in. I can't relate to this, but you pretty much remind me of that person.

"How do you see humanity and society?"

Useless, they exist to satisfy my desires.

"I posted this on pf. Figured I'd post it here in the hope that it might get some interesting responses as well"

Interesting or not, most of the members there are bored housewives or teens without a social life just making shit up. I had a glance on there before, most threads consist of pointless flame wars, insults. Those people must really hate their lives.

My financial situation (which you clearly know nothing about) has nothing to do with anything I've mentioned on this thread, and I couldn't give a shit about anybody else's financial situation since it also has nothing to do with this.

Try again, but this time, try sticking to the thread topic.

"The older I get the more angry and hostile I seem to be feeling."
I seem to be becoming more passive and accepting as I get older. Things don't have the same impact on me that they once did. The lack of importance I carry is slowly becoming less of a mental burden while questioning why it's worth pushing on replaces it.

"I have a lot of contempt for humanity. I see people as worthless pieces of shlt floating in this sewer we call society."
I find the variations interesting, especially the more vibrant displays. It's amazing to see people who have coped with problems to the point of becoming a strong part of their identity, how they've adapted from it, the lens they carry for a different route towards experience. We all live in the same place yet see such different worlds, and being able to perspective take their views is like traveling to another universe.

As a whole though people suck, but they can be a source of entertainment when analyzed deeply enough. When someone catches my eye I find myself wanting to know what constitutes the glue that holds their lives together with such fragility. I want to see the expressions that they'd call "the truth", I want honest expressions of their deepest core motivations, views, the whole schematic that makes them who they believe themselves to be. I want to see the depth of their minds to the point of even enjoying their suffering.

People to me are data.

"Sometimes I just want to go on a killing spree and kill every random stranger that crosses my path."
Somehow I feel like you going through with that wouldn't sate that feeling.

"I'm so frustrated with life at the moment. I feel like a cat trapped in a cage and it's driving me crazy. I want to be free."
Wait... is this you having an existential crisis?

"Do any of you feel that way as well?"
Trapped? Quite so, yes, but I don't think it's the sort of thing that can be fixed. The notion stems from the mind in a relative sense, so it'll always adjust to be the case regardless of my circumstances.

It's like feeling trapped within the human condition itself.

"How do you see humanity and society?"
I see it as something I can study for the sake of my own entertainment and understanding of those unlike myself yet similar to others I may meet down the line, mapping a mental chart of the similarities for future use. I enjoy the role of observer, throwing little ripples into the pond to see which fish will jump as it passes by.

It must be real frustrating for you living in poverty, while the society you hate is comprised of millions of qualified and more talented individuals that keep your worth at bay, while they prosper and frown at the thought of being you.

Why does it annoy you to find no one else like yourself?

Is it a matter of loneliness?