I bet you feel so special
I'd like to meet you just to mess with your bong, dude, and see what you do.
You ain't no fucking sociopath I can tell you that much, but you just keep on kidnapping them kittens, won't you. One day (when you grow another brain cell or two) you could try people instead. I don't hold out much hope for you though.
When I was a kid I was bullied , and then when another kid showed up , I bullied him and pretended he was the bully , I remember getting him kicked off the bus , I had splashed milk on him and then lied and said he insulted me and laughed and accidentally spilt it on him. My friend covered for me. I smile thinking of it now.
I also stole when I was a kid , just candy but continuesly for a while , then when I finally got caught , I still managed to steall candy and then told my parents to avoid making the conflict worse , I don't care if its wrong , I just don't do it cause i don't wanna get caught cause that's annoying.
Instead doing the math exam in highschool that I didn't yet sudy for , I wrote a paragraph that used my teachers emotions to redo the test another day.
As a child , my teacher thought I had aspergers because I didn't give a fuck and did my own thing , but now no one can tell.
People are entertainment and knowledge for me , if they stop being so or are not nearby I don't care for them.
If you anger me because you borrowed my bong and don't return it on time, I show up at your house when you parents aren't home , realize the doors unlocked and then threaten to kidnap your kitten , they get scared and lock the door. The next day they give me back the bong the whole time I'm calm , don't care about what I did last night just getting back what's mine.
I like writing really fucked up stories , just to see peoples reactions. Things like all the people suddenly urged to sow themselves together and become one , they then seek out the protagonist ( me ) and make me their king and God head. And I have many other fantasies.
I also took advantage of my dad's boredom and loneliness, so that I could acquire free weed and smokes, and when he doesnt want to give me any , he usually does. but I still desire what I want and I always get what I want except women , which I just don't understand but do desire.
I'm compulsive and like being bad , but I control myself to avoid my pain.
When people see me , they can't read me . No one knows what I'm thinking and I show little emotion , any emotion I do show is self centered , and most of the time when I talk to people they either interest or bore me. Most of my conversations are recorded messages. People are shocked when I go from no emotion to sudden and momentary lapse of intense fury then back as if it was nothing. For some reason I'm around of that.
I also like philosophy because i think it's the smartest and most powerful of tools for control and power. I admire men that most would hate , but I do admire some of the good people too. My morality , if you would call it that is based on the dysjunction between one and all, what I desire versus what I have. "justice" is just emergent from that. I think this because it gives me an ego boost, because I feel power in thinking of my condition not other people's.
