I am a sociopath and for the last six months I have been on a downward spiral of risk behaviour. It has gotten pretty bad. I have basically went from high functioning to low functioning in that time. In the past I feel I had a decent system for taking care of my shit but now life is changing and I need to come up with something better. I have thought of writing a compendium of all of the knowledge I will need to keep life going smoothly. Some things I would like it to contain are:
- A guide to personality typing and how to use personality types to my advantage
- Threat neutralization techniques to take care of those who get in my way
- Damage control techniques for when my inner most socio shows and I cant help it
- Time management techniques
- Behavioural Checklist to manage risk behaviour.
- A simple guide to social interaction (do's dont's etc)
Any more ideas on what I should include in this sort of life guide? I may post it if enough interest is gained when I finish.
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The language from your recent posts sounds like the sort of thing I'd expect from someone who's been alone for too long, spending a lot of time in their own head to the point of regressing to out loud conversations with themselves. You seem pretty repressed, which is likely culprit for your reverting to "low-functioning":
"Sometimes I think I let myself become possessed. Do you know the feeling? Oh man, like there's something driving you so powerful, that you could just defy gravity. I want so much. I can't even say it. Where will I wake up tomorrow? I'm that out of my mind."
"I want to wreck everyone who gets in my way. I won't yield to my desires. I won't try to reason with my impulses. I want and I want... you can never know how hungry I am."
"How do you fill the bottomless pit?"
"I feel a near constant intense rage lately, which I know stems from my own sense of perceived powerlessness with regards to this."
"in the meantime the rise in temperature is threatening to boil me alive, from the inside out."
Maybe a guide to outlets will help keep this "inner most socio" as you've labeled it in check? Otherwise, based on the rest of your more recent postings, I'd recommend writing a guide to humbleness. Not everyone likes a braggart. 
Also:
"All emotions can be chosen. I am doing it, others are doing it. Therefore, it is possible. To say it isnt possible is to deny the evidence."
Maybe this is related to why you seem so repressed?
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