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The hyper activity then depression, sounds similar to Bipolar. Because you describe your lows to be slight, you may be diagnosed with Bipolar 2, which isn't as sever.

The voices, granted you're actually hearing them are a symptom of schizophrenia.

Often do mental conditions mix and match. What makes the person is how the beholder copes with it. Some lose their shit and jump off buildings, while others with the same condition, stick around for the next episode.

I can only guess with such little information, you ought to provide more details.

Hi,

I'm really curious to find out what exactly is wrong with me. I know I'm not like other people, but I don't want to get diagnosed out of fear being labeled as 'dangerous'.

I am constantly fighting against a 'dark force' inside of me. Sometimes when I see people, there's a voice inside of me that tells me to kill or do other bad stuff. I also don't like losing a debate at all. I can get very angry if people prove me wrong and I'll just try to lie my way out of it.

I'm also a seeker of pity and praise (when it suits me best). Even to my family (who I truly love).

But more about that 'dark force'. I try to suppress it, and it works when I'm sober, even though I sometimes have to try really hard. But then comes the booze... When I drink, I lose control. I'll fight people without any fear or remorse and I'll make people do bad things.

Basically, the only fear I have is losing my loved ones and fear of going to jail for when I lose control.

I also have moments that I'm really hyper and moments that I'm slightly depressed.

Thx for reading!

Don't drink, and for the sake of stability, experiment with gracefully loosing a debate when you do, so you'll avoid pettiness that will further damage you.

There's a benefit to accepting a loss when you learn you're wrong and adopting a new perspective. Find out what it is, even if you must pay for it with shame.

Everyone has an ego, and when we're forced to change, it upsets us/the ego, so some will get angry and be defensive.

Accept the loss, and you'll find it easier to deal with other issues.

About the voice in your head. Push back. In the worst case it can be an evil entity trying to use you. Of course many would say that's absurd, but in general it's no different if it were a conscious entity trying to use you or not. Don't be an instrument.