since i wouldn't know how to answer most of these questions for anyone else here, i'll do myself.
- What would mentally destroy that member?
i don't know. after every traumatic event that's happened to me, even the ones where in the moment i felt that i would never be whole again, i invariably woke up the next day feeling fine. a few i might have slight ptsd from, but that hasn't mentally destroyed me lol.
i think that what has mentally destroyed me is my life. i've been depressed to some degree or another for basically as long as i can remember. first it was school, which showed me first hand what the world outside the house was like and scared me with its hive-mind mentality, its mindless busywork. then when i left school, i spent years and years in solitary confinement inside the house, while barely ever talking to anyone besides my parents. i think that that's really fucked my head. over the years it's caused me to have greater and greater chronic emotional pain, to the point where i want to die. so what would mentally destroy me is life.
- How does the member feel about his parents?
they really annoy me, i wish i could have them out of my life forever. that's how it's been for all my life, i just want to live by myself. i can go months with them gone while not missing them whatsoever.
- When did the member feel completely loved and accepted?
when i was living at my aunt's house. she was like the perfect parent that i never had.
- What would have to happen to make the member speak out, or, defend a stranger, in public?
it would probably take a lot, cause i'm normally fearful about that kind of thing.
well i remember, back when i was in fourth grade, i had a teacher that would always tease students a lot. and i felt this to be unfair to the students, so whenever he was teasing someone i would start kicking the leg of the table or breaking pencils (i was mostly nonverbal back then so this was my way of protest). so i guess it takes an asshole teacher....
- What does the member lie about?
i lie about:
what i do on the computer all day, because i don't want anyone reading what i post on here or other forums.
how i'm doing today. because saying 'i'm doing horrible, thanks for asking' wouldn't really work.
any other questions about my feelings or inner life, since i see that information to be private.
eating the last cookie in the box.
if the police catch me out after curfew, then i'm always over 18.
telling suicidal / self harm thoughts to my therapist, cause i don't want that to be disclosed to everybody in creation.
that's most of what i lie about, i guess
- Does the member need friends?
i need people that i can talk to honestly and rely on and have deep emotional connections with. i find having normal style friends, like kids your own age that you hang out with and do retarded shit together, kind of tedious, but i could see those potentially being fun.
- What physical thing does the member fear most?
well i fear all the things that everyone else fears, like getting my finger chopped off with a blender, but you could probably imagine that. my greatest irrational fear, though, is deep water, and things underwater. thalassophobia and submechanophobia. even though submechanophobia means manmade objects, it doesn't even have to be machinery. a while ago i was swimming in this lake that had submerged tree stumps, and every time my foot brushed against a stump, or the boat went over a stump that was just barely submerged, i would freak out.
- If the member could choose to spend its last day alive with one person (dead or alive), who would it choose?
spending a whole day with someone sounds exhausting, i'd prefer to be alone.
- What is the member's defining strength?
my greatest talent is visual-spatial reasoning, i'm kind of a genius in that respect.
- Is the member able to work for someone else?
no. having a boss would piss me off
- Does the member have a positive or negative body image?
negative, but i don't really care if i'm ugly. i'm too lazy to put effort into showering and washing and combing and shaving myself and putting makeup on every fucking day. i think i'm going to shave my hair off again, it keeps getting in my way and it's annoying.
- Who, or what, would the member die for?
well, i tried to commit suicide a couple times due to constant emotional pain, so you could say that i would die for the sake of death, if it's better than life.
- Does the member have a plan for tomorrow? Next week? Next year?
i never plan anything out.
- Is the member resilient enough to change?
no. i am really afraid of peeling off the protective shell around my mind and having the world and myself flow together. i think that if i did that, everything would be too much to handle.
Pick a member. Answer questions about them:
- What would mentally destroy that member?
- How does the member feel about his parents?
- When did the member feel completely loved and accepted?
- What would have to happen to make the member speak out, or, defend a stranger, in public?
- What does the member lie about?
- Does the member need friends?
- What physical thing does the member fear most?
- If the member could choose to spend its last day alive with one person (dead or alive), who would it choose?
- What is the member defining strength?
- Is the member able to work for someone else?
- Does the member have a positive or negative body image?
- Who, or what, would the member die for?
- Does the member have a plan for tomorrow? Next week? Next year?
- Is the member resilient enough to change?
Do as many as you like.
Name: John Doe
- What would mentally destroy that member?
- I dunno. Maybe everyone else is crazy.
- How does the member feel about his parents?
- Neutral
- When did the member feel completely loved and accepted?
- Emmm I don't know. I don't know Jhon that well.
- What would have to happen to make the member speak out, or, defend a stranger, in public?
- An injustice against John's ideals
- What does the member lie about?
- uff, depends, but..what does everybody don't lie about.
- Does the member need friends?
- No.
- What physical thing does the member fear most?
- None for now as far as I know
- If the member could choose to spend its last day alive with one person (dead or alive), who would it choose?
- Knowing her, probably alone or someone very smart and interesting.
- What is the member defining strength?
- Intelligence, will power, determination, vision and a suitable low profile.
- Is the member able to work for someone else?
- The appropriate incentive. Yes. Is a mercenary like many others.
- Does the member have a positive or negative body image?
- Positive?
- Who, or what, would the member die for?
- I don't know.
- Does the member have a plan for tomorrow? Next week? Next year?
- I bet
- Is the member resilient enough to change?
- Yes, even when Jhon seems to be obsolete and somehow too traditionalist she is a very malleable one. I would say adaptive more than resilient.
Let's guess
Member: Mika
- What would mentally destroy that member?
- Abusive people.
- How does the member feel about his parents?
- Sometimes obfuscated, but loved and protected
- When did the member feel completely loved and accepted?
- When people give her a chance, and love her and accept her.
- What would have to happen to make the member speak out, or, defend a stranger, in public?
- considering the sweet she is. Probably, she just need to be present and see an injustice againt this stranger.
- What does the member lie about?
- I don't know, I wish to know, but I like to think she is always honest.
- Does the member need friends?
- yes
- What physical thing does the member fear most?
- strangers
- If the member could choose to spend its last day alive with one person (dead or alive), who would it choose?
- her daughter
- What is the member defining strength?
- Cuteness, hyperactivity, intelligence, stubbornness
- Is the member able to work for someone else?
- yes, submissively
- Does the member have a positive or negative body image?
- I wish to know.
- Who, or what, would the member die for?
- Her daughter, and parents
- Does the member have a plan for tomorrow? Next week? Next year?
- Yes
- Is the member resilient enough to change?
- Is fragile and tends to get harm. But she tries.
