"Stop trying to leave and you will arrive. Stop seeking and you will see. Stop running away and you will be found." - Lao Tzu
and also *buddha
if i am buddah... and all life is buddah, and if i am the observer, and the observer of all life from different perspectives, am i hiding from myself? is it lonely to be buddah? the idea that i am all there is? does it have moral implications? the idea that ego is just a mental fabrication, and that really there is just the observer and the biological machine? if will power and logic is the result of the biological machine, then where do i exist within the living being? am i really just an observer watching it all? why do i experience the illusion that i make decisions?
why does this ego want to create a better and more enjoyale society for humanity? does knowledge by the ego of the buddah reduce the value of life? is it better that buddah hides from itself? if i am buddah and all living beings are buddah, then death of the biological machine is just ego death. it's because i the observer appear attached to the ego that i fear the death of the ego. the ego itself has evolved to dislike the thought of it's own lack of existance, and i the observer, experience the illusion of having thies existencial worries. this fear of non-existance is hope. hope is will of the ego.
the ego wants to accomplish things, and as long as the ego has hope, it will hold on to life, and continue to experience this journey. once hope is lost, the ego dies just as it might go to sleep, but i the buddah remain.
"if i am buddah... and all life is buddah, and if i am the observer, and the observer of all life from different perspectives, am i hiding from myself?"
Buddha is "all life," and you are a part of being all living things...then the only way you could be hiding from yourself is if you deceive yourself about your own nature. But what beliefs do you hold about yourself that are true, and which are not? It's easy to see how you reflect yourself, but harder to figure out why you choose to portray yourself in a certain manner.
"is it lonely to be buddah? the idea that i am all there is?"
If life itself being all that there is is a lonely thing to you, then yes. But that's a perception you choose among many others that make equal sense.
"does it have moral implications?"
My opinion is that life will continue on as it always has. Some people think recognizing our interconnections should make us strive to achieve better as a species, and that may not be an impossible thing.
" the idea that ego is just a mental fabrication, and that really there is just the observer and the biological machine? if will power and logic is the result of the biological machine, then where do i exist within the living being?"
Check out this video, I think it might answer your question.
"why do i experience the illusion that i make decisions?"
The reason people experience the illusion that they make decisions because they are accustomed to having thoughts about doing things followed by actions. We develop the sense of agency to make sense of the fact that we experience thoughts, and those thoughts are often accompanied by actions.
"why does this ego want to create a better and more enjoyale society for humanity? does knowledge by the ego of the buddah reduce the value of life?"
Could you elaborate more on this?
