Mind over body, for the most part. I don't do pharmaceuticals, when I can help it. And I believe in facing pain to make yourself stronger. Focusing in on the pain is almost a form of meditation for me.
Whenever my pain tolerance is touched I get enraged and excited. I'll get a sudden surge of energy, blinding anger and laughing hysterically all at the same time. The few instances I was put in that position I purposely prolonged the pain, the pain felt good despite the emotions i said previously. It felt good to shrug off the pain and ask for more of it, in thought and sometimes verbally doubting the pain because I was above that.
It's something that I've experienced 3 times in my life, still have no insight on it.
I split off part of my psyche and project it into a little grotesque monster that deserves the pain because it loses league of legends matches and watch as it suffers and begs for mercy. I named it Vernon. Vernon doesn't believe in love because the only thing he knows is pain.
is this forum always going to be called moon-ninja why is it called moon-ninja i mean i know sociopath-community was pretty gay but this is just another level