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Am I a sociopath? Or am I just an a*shole?

I'm in a relationship with a woman who's five years older than me, but she doesn't know because we met online, and I lied to her about my age. She's currently nineteen, turning twenty in August.

I am very good at lying. You have no idea. I don't lie in real life, with my friends, but I do lie compulsively and uncontrollably online, and the worst thing is, I start believing these lies. I feel bad for lying to my girlfriend, but not overwhelmingly so. The only reason I feel bad is because if she finds out, the whole facade of a person I've built up would collapse and that would be unfortunate.

I'm slowly trying to correct my wrongs by telling the truth about my age online, but that's difficult. The main reason I want to do this is because it'll take too much effort otherwise - lying takes a lot of energy that I don't want to waste or spend. Also, when it comes to sociopathic behavior, I don't know. I think of myself as genuinely superior and "different" from other people, I constantly look down on others internally, and I'm very good at making other people like me. However, I do prefer to be alone, even though everybody I know, including my parents and my sister, would refer to me as a decided extrovert.

I'm also extremely impulsive, which I've read up as one of the hints of being a sociopath. I don't know if I'm a pyromaniac, but I keep a lighter close by and I like watching things burn and seeing flames. I also thoroughly enjoy touching the fire with my finger just to see how long I can hold it there for without being burned. (Answer: Not very long).

When it comes to empathy, I'm sure I have feelings and all that other lovely bullcrap. I've cried watching the Titanic, I seriously care about my sister and parents, I guess, but when it comes down to it, I really ... don't? For example, when my parents divorced just a year ago, I genuinely didn't care. And when my sister's best friend died, I didn't care, either. And when my great-uncle died, I didn't care at all. And when I saw a dead animal, I didn't really care - I was fascinated, and tried taking it apart, but I wasn't scared, nor did I care.

I've always liked feeling important too - I was always a bit of an attention snob and I'd throw tantrums when people didn't pay attention to me, but I guess that's what all kids are like, huh? Still, it's like that today. I despise going to plays or productions that I'm not in (I'm in a theater group in my high school), I feel extreme jealousy for people who receive recognition, and I feel a sort of entitlement for many things.

I've also been called "wise beyond my years," mostly because I don't find interest in the things other girls or boys my age find interest in. I'm not interested in clothes, or fashion, or television, or entertainment, or anything like that... Just something to give me a thrill, something that excites me. And once the adrenaline is over, I quickly detach myself from it. I'm also a big "feminist" or social justice activist, but only because I find it absolutely idiotic to deprive someone of their rights, if everybody's below my notice anyway, you know? I don't know, it's just stupid, and everybody should care about it. It's like they're rats running on a wheel, and they're too consumed in their own dumb antics to realize they're being played. But I digress.

Can someone just ... help me?
Update: Edit: To clear some things up, what I'm telling you is the truth. That may sound stupid, but this is one of the few times I'm not lying online. Then again, who are you to trust me?

Constructive things only, thank you. I don't care if there's a little bite. Thanks for the answers so far.
Update 2: Also ... My gf and I have cammed and chatted on the phone (I can pass for a college freshman, easy), and she wants me to visit next month, which is one of the reasons why I'm seeking help. Should I break up with her? I don't want this stupid thing to go on until it's irreversible.

https://answers.yahoo.com/question/index?qid=20120420110622AA9ZzPY

https://answers.yahoo.com/question/index?qid=20150519133115AA8fUk4

it's funny how much more sense these questions make when you swap the words

by BirdInFlight

What strikes me first is your real age is presumably what, 14 or 15, in that case?

Then you are too young to be getting involved in a relationship with a woman of 20. And it's pretty unfair that you've lied to her so that she doesn't know how young you are. You are coercing her into an involvement that may even get her into trouble legally, depending on how far you take things with her.

I know it's the internet but still it's lousy to be a liar, yes even on the internet. That shows no moral compass. Just because it's the anonymous internet is no excuse -- it's the principle of the matter, like not stealing something just because no-one's looking or there are no consequences.

Those people out there that you're lying to from behind your screen are still REAL PEOPLE who are being duped, making you not much better than a troll although they don't know it.

Being a consistent and persistent liar is not often a trait in people on the autism spectrum. And while tantrums (meltdowns) do happen, one distinguishing feature of the autistic "tantrum" is that it in fact is NOT usually done "for attention" as you state your own are. The autistic meltdown is usually a helpless, scary thing the person finds themselves going through, while an ordinary tantrum by usually an NT child or person is characterized by deliberate manipulation.

 my favorite part is that this guy is 52 years old

Sounds to me that you are totally aware of what you are doing, however, the fact that you lie and then believe the lies, say to me that perhaps you are either amoral, leading towards aspd, or you are npd, or a cross between the two. Probably a bit of both worlds eh? When you lose yourself in someone else, they have the power to destroy your sense of who you are. combine that with your impulsivity and things could get nasty. Me personally, I'd take the pleasure with the pain, and forget about the guilt of lying about your age, but me, I probably was not as emotionally connected with others around your age, in the sense that I have issues with enduring relationships, I sometimes went into them with no feelings and developed them over time, so becoming emotionally involved is enduring on me, bad greed sometimes in the past, or too much attachment. Now, I get love struck as you may do. So, it's a gamble. Lie, take some pleasure, and be prepared for the pain. Or play it by ear, and see if she ever compliments your maturity or whatever you need to know to make the confident move towards the truth and a longer relationship if pressure sets in. 

I don't think you are a sociopath in any sense, except that you may not see the harm your going to inflict on yourself down the road, if you are unlucky. Which is pretty common. I'm not a psychologist, so... maybe stop worrying too much about what they want, and where you see a low self esteem in yourself, and start putting your guard up and think hey, I'm what she wants. 

You're also pretty crafty, so if it's no big deal, admit it whenever. I doubt it will matter with her.

I don't know if I'm a pyromaniac, but I keep a lighter close by and I like watching things burn and seeing flames. I also thoroughly enjoy touching the fire with my finger just to see how long I can hold it there for without being burned. (Answer: Not very long).

If you are a pyromaniac, tell me how much you love this video. Headphones required. 

It's not a psychology test, it's only a video I found while listening to this groups stuff.

Sometimes white noise style music is heaven.

It's Bonnie Clyde, what would you tell Bonnie Clyde?

by Daniella

 

Am I a sociopath? Or am I just an a*shole?

I'm in a relationship with a woman who's five years older than me, but she doesn't know because we met online, and I lied to her about my age. She's currently nineteen, turning twenty in August.

I am very good at lying. You have no idea. I don't lie in real life, with my friends, but I do lie compulsively and uncontrollably online, and the worst thing is, I start believing these lies. I feel bad for lying to my girlfriend, but not overwhelmingly so. The only reason I feel bad is because if she finds out, the whole facade of a person I've built up would collapse and that would be unfortunate.

I'm slowly trying to correct my wrongs by telling the truth about my age online, but that's difficult. The main reason I want to do this is because it'll take too much effort otherwise - lying takes a lot of energy that I don't want to waste or spend. Also, when it comes to sociopathic behavior, I don't know. I think of myself as genuinely superior and "different" from other people, I constantly look down on others internally, and I'm very good at making other people like me. However, I do prefer to be alone, even though everybody I know, including my parents and my sister, would refer to me as a decided extrovert.

I'm also extremely impulsive, which I've read up as one of the hints of being a sociopath. I don't know if I'm a pyromaniac, but I keep a lighter close by and I like watching things burn and seeing flames. I also thoroughly enjoy touching the fire with my finger just to see how long I can hold it there for without being burned. (Answer: Not very long).

When it comes to empathy, I'm sure I have feelings and all that other lovely bullcrap. I've cried watching the Titanic, I seriously care about my sister and parents, I guess, but when it comes down to it, I really ... don't? For example, when my parents divorced just a year ago, I genuinely didn't care. And when my sister's best friend died, I didn't care, either. And when my great-uncle died, I didn't care at all. And when I saw a dead animal, I didn't really care - I was fascinated, and tried taking it apart, but I wasn't scared, nor did I care.

I've always liked feeling important too - I was always a bit of an attention snob and I'd throw tantrums when people didn't pay attention to me, but I guess that's what all kids are like, huh? Still, it's like that today. I despise going to plays or productions that I'm not in (I'm in a theater group in my high school), I feel extreme jealousy for people who receive recognition, and I feel a sort of entitlement for many things.

I've also been called "wise beyond my years," mostly because I don't find interest in the things other girls or boys my age find interest in. I'm not interested in clothes, or fashion, or television, or entertainment, or anything like that... Just something to give me a thrill, something that excites me. And once the adrenaline is over, I quickly detach myself from it. I'm also a big "feminist" or social justice activist, but only because I find it absolutely idiotic to deprive someone of their rights, if everybody's below my notice anyway, you know? I don't know, it's just stupid, and everybody should care about it. It's like they're rats running on a wheel, and they're too consumed in their own dumb antics to realize they're being played. But I digress.

Can someone just ... help me?
Update: Edit: To clear some things up, what I'm telling you is the truth. That may sound stupid, but this is one of the few times I'm not lying online. Then again, who are you to trust me?

Constructive things only, thank you. I don't care if there's a little bite. Thanks for the answers so far.
Update 2: Also ... My gf and I have cammed and chatted on the phone (I can pass for a college freshman, easy), and she wants me to visit next month, which is one of the reasons why I'm seeking help. Should I break up with her? I don't want this stupid thing to go on until it's irreversible.

https://answers.yahoo.com/question/index?qid=20120420110622AA9ZzPY

http://wrongplanet.net/forums/viewtopic.php?f=3&t=285964

couldn't resist

i love zero tolerance TC