nigger
Since the beginning of my introspection quest I noticed a slow fade in my desire to achieve big things and always try my best, slowly opting for the choices of doing good enough and trying to have as much as fun and pleasure instead. The thirst to succeed and acquire is being replaced with a desire to just go with the flow and have beautiful and stimulating experiences on the way. Am I becoming a faggot? Thanks for the responses xx
Either is cool. What is important is that you continue to understand to understand yourself and learn to relate to the world. Your narcissistic core is never going to go away; you just have to learn how to channel it positively. That is what Steve Jobs did. His megalomaniac perfectionist desires are the reason why people are walking around talking on iPhones. But now and again he slipped up and let his "other side" out:
http://uk.businessinsider.com/steve-jobs-jerk-2011-10?op=1?r=US
Anyways, I don't think seeking temporal or long-term pleasure really have much to do with resolving whatever thoughts and feelings are floating through your head. My advice is to learn how to use the positive aspects of your core personality (your charm, ability to manipulate, lack of empathy, etc.) to your advantage, and start toning down the negative and destructive parts of who you are.
I get that you like to see people in pain, or something of the sort, and this place is a good outlet for you to channel out your sadistic urges. What if you could channel those sadistic urges into something positive? I turned my sadistic urges into a domineering personality that doesn't seek to hurt others (unless I feel they deserve it). I turned the need to inflict pain into the strong desire to be in control. Maybe you can do something similar, maybe not. I'm just tossing out an idea. Whenever I'm around, feel free to bounce ideas off of me and have a talk.
Since the beginning of my introspection quest I noticed a slow fade in my desire to achieve big things and always try my best, slowly opting for the choices of doing good enough and trying to have as much as fun and pleasure instead. The thirst to succeed and acquire is being replaced with a desire to just go with the flow and have beautiful and stimulating experiences on the way
Give in to the apathy. Become the autism. Shitpost all day. Embrace the NEET life. Reinstall Gentoo. Stop being so fucking successful already, faggot.
Am I becoming a faggot?
No 'becoming' in this situation. You already were; the faggotry is simply increasing.
Thanks for the responses xx
You aren't welcome. xx