So you feel more comfortable in an environment full of possible pickpockets, con artists, and general rabble-rousers than an empty scene of endless sleepers?
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I had a young age belief that all religion was cult-like brainwashing based on how I saw it change classmates of mine into different people when I was five or so. The faces the really devout worshiper types have is creepy, and the architecture, the scene, and sheer numbers pushes that appearance even further. I believed "in the self" pretty early, and found anything that (on the surface) took away from that weird.
Some weeks at a school called West Portal Lutheran didn't exactly help me either. I always feel that sort of "out of place" where I'll either shrivel up (literally, not metaphorically) from the sheer presence of the place or that at any time from a misstep they may sick the devout on me, attacking me like Las Plagas followers from Resident Evil 4.
The architecture always intrigued me and scared me. I loved the designs but always felt like the angels or whatever were staring at me. For me I just find it strange how I used to believe so much in the ideal of god, and now when I walk by a church, it just baffles me that people still go there.
" I loved the designs but always felt like the angels or whatever were staring at me."
The faith is pushed heavily from this notion of being watched. It's like they believe that without something to account for what they're doing that they'll suddenly do "bad things".
The notion's even pushed through "Santa" to try to make it appear acceptable to children before upgrading them to deities. A lot of the expectations from Santa make him like "God Lite", using more literal rewards before they can fully understand the impact of "spiritual" ones.