Start off with sum Olazapine 5mg ; it will really help with your thoughts about God/Devil. I heard all this stuff before when I worked on a psych ward. Me is starting to think you have psychosis with scruples . Run far away from your charismatic Benny Hin name it and claim it church.... it's feeding your delusions. But I know this feels like reality ...so I hope you get in one day. I really feel for you. Because it's a tough delusion to break.
I was worried you might have actually lost your mind for a moment, but then I read one of your posts (the one you wrote above) and seen that you are still capable of weaving your ex and your mother into any topic. While I was disappointed that you did not manage to somehow also include Warren and Thrill Kill into this story, I suppose the tenacity with which you are posting chunks of text all over this forum makes up for that.
I get it you have faith in God; but the theology yr learning is making you sick. There are more churches out there that aren't as extreme in their doctrines and have a balanced view with implementing doctrine. Good luck. If you stop your bible reading and scriptures your mind will have time to settle down. It's feeding the scruples.
brianna
she told me about how she promises she would never dump me
stop lying
won't talk to other guys
promised to love me forever
told me she PRAYED TO GOD for us to have a nice life and nice house together
many more.. that makes people like you on this forum less evil than her
but anyways
she lied so much then was shown a possible future she was lured down a FIERY hole to a fake concert(i warned her not to go to those concerts too knowing her personality) then she saw her sister and some other friend there and random people being poked with spears in their torso the demon had goat legs and horns and looked similar to a giant human but with goat legs and weird horns and shit(similar to what jesus/yahshua shown me in hell)
i have lied but never like this.. i never in my life seen anyone lie this much it was worse than that sarah person
maybe slightly more lies than my mother
but my mother doesn't brag about her lies constantly..shes been fired for lying and told people
but my ex girlfriend would say how i was gullible then brag about how she thinks she got away with stuff because i forgived her
but then she was shown hell.. and raped by a demon.. god tried to tell her he loves her and asked her to pray to get the demons to go away but after waking up she then abandons me months later
i didn't really know how to talk to her i screwed up a lot but she didn't forgive
i tried to forgive lots of times but she kept being bad
i had a dream where my girlfriend was a demon..she was some silver eyed girl in old clothes then some priests outside the house i was in were doing exorcisms and she told me it wasn't safe she had to leave then me and some boy arrived soon after the priests with bulldozers entered the house we went searching for her..in hell.. to basically try and save her but it was too late for her some weird lava spirit raganus stoped us going further to search for her then i was depressed and woke up later
it may of represented my girlfriend was evil and i tried to love her the best i could but she was too far gone and god sent her away to protect me or something like that (physics are different outside earth)
i hope angels come back to save me and others