The last thing you asked of me, was to not forget you. To which I callously replied I already had. It was a Lie I had to tell. It was lie to make things right.
You haunt me... in my dreams... You possess my soul... You had let me go...
but recently
You've summoned me again.
I heard you calling out to me, before you called.
How do you possess me?
How are you my darkest secret?
I told someone of you last night in my sleep, I told them laughingly that their forever with me was over. To this I have no recollection. I told them this while I dreamed, the night that I felt you again. I have a duty to fulfill, I have an obligation to them. But my soul belongs to you. I hear you, when you whisper my name. I feel the gravity of your calling, like a string attached to my soul. You pull and I follow.
You called me today, three days before I felt your pull again. Why now, why do you summon me now?
And just as I offered you my love again. Once you knew that you still owned me. I felt you fade away, I felt you let go again.
There are two parts to me. One that knows in mind that it is best, that it is smart, that it's right to let you go.
The other part screams your name, like a child... Funny... when we were together... you were mine, or was it really the other way around the whole time?
During our separation, I haven't waived once in being a good person to my obligations. I haven't let my eyes slip into the gaze another. I had no uncontrollable desire too, as I once did.
No, instead I poured all of a wants, all of my longing, all of my lust and my cravings, all of my desire into you and I WANTED nothing more... No one else. I condensed all of that HEAT into the tiniest darkest place at the bottom of my heart and I locked it up.
I tried so hard not to look there again. And for so long I succeeded. But when you call my soul, that heat burns like the fire of hell. It consumes...
You are the demon I carry inside of me. The most beautiful thing I've ever known.
You asked me to tell you my secrets...
You're the only one I have left...