I never regret it. I never want it again, not sure if it could happen or if I'd care.
It's easy to have someone see the flaws in someone correlate into how they are horrible people, while showing how someone is great after their first few impressions is a challenge. Many see bad things said about someone as more sincere than verbal character build up (and often times it is more genuine).
As for the OP... I don't know what would qualify as "Darkest". I've had some pretty shitty lows, and sometimes I still do.
by TurncoatReaper: "Raising my daughter has required a lot of responsibility and that is something I still hate."
Do you see yourself returning to that sort of life once she's out on her own?
Yes, I do. Absolutely.
I know I'm a glutton for punishment, but I want some more excitement in my life and if that means getting into trouble again, then so be it. I'm prepared to that risk.
a story that many here are well acquainted with. i was already pretty unstable at the time, my good friend spike and i weren't on speaking terms. spike started behaving strangely, telling people things that she knew would get back to me. one of the things that got back to me was very revealing..
i told spike's roommate about my suspicions, and she had some of her own it turns out. when we realised, we both seemed to lose touch with reality to an extent, our paranoia didn't stop us being reckless. i still remember spike's face when she realised i was onto her. i usually ignored her when she was around, but this time i looked at her, and told her what i knew with my eyes. she was noticeably uncomfortable, lol.
i remember when we started torturing her, she acted like it didn't bother her. maybe she thought this was deter us, it did the opposite. we wanted "blood". there was no limit to what we did, apart from beating the shit out of her, and a couple of seriously dangerous things i had to talk the roommate out of so she didn't end up in prison.
i didn't deal with the situation 'well', but i had an amazing outlet being that i was in this person's home for a couple of months. every time i was angered by what she had done, i could act on it. i rationalised this with the 'thin skull principle', she deserved my reaction as abnormal as it was (and it was, even for what she had done) because i consider myself to have a thin skull. lol. i used every weakness she had against her (mostly her inflated ego), outsmarted her brilliantly, and let her put the final nails in her financial coffin herself. that's how i 'recovered' i guess, fortunately i had restitution of the most delicious kind.