Oh God, your new avatar is even worse... goddammit, just drop the fucking gasmask already, it looks gay.
I used to be all over the place when I'd drink, but after some point I couldn't shut off my focus anymore. My tolerance is crappy, but I spent a period of time practicing a good poker face, good focus, and good balance so that I could appear sober if I ever needed to. I still get sentimental and a little goofier when drinking, but there's no reckless abandon behind it anymore.