Just got home from the Play house, where I was watching Shakespeare's 'Macbeth'. That's something I enjoy from time to time, going to the play house or ballet. The dance conveys the message with much greater perspicacity than words in my opinion.
I'm thinking about asking him to come with me to watch a ballet version of Orwells 1984... Which you know is going to be good. I still haven't seen him around, mainly because I didn't catch the bus around 3 o clock... I came home quite late.
It really helped lighten me up, I must begin to indulge In such things more often... Before I went I wrote a short piece regarding my feelings in that moment.
: Counted time of whispering beneath my breath a mantra of what's wrong with the world, Hoping to solidify a reason to kill myself.
The squalor of men is due to the sordidness of a degenerated culture, morally exhausting it's constituents. A lack of interest in the fields of academics, people begin to over-indulge in social lives and other meaningless endeavours to compensate for their barren and meaningless existence.
What is to be done?
I'm taking as many people as possible with me, before turning it upon myself and ending this life of suffering.
"Have hope!" You hear in the distance, as a man comes running up with a condescending voice... As if he is qualified to give you advice.
A fellow human being he is not, a rapacious animal he is... Humans are the most despicable of all creatures, constantly aiming to benefit only themselves.
Hope, hope is the worst of all evil as it prolongs the suffering of man... You truly are the most sadistic of people! :
I spent an hour speaking to some homeless dude, they tend to suffer from a major lack of attention... It's a charitable act to say hello in such cases.
I also happened to come across some crazy dude who was very aggressive whilst I was at the bus stop. I just played it cool and shook his hand and bid him farewell as I departed to the bus, much to my relief. I really don't mind people with such issues, I myself am not sane... But at least show some respect, don't talk about fighting people and demonstrating your fighting ability.
Anyway, daily advice: It's not suicide if you're already dead inside... Remember that kids when you develop an alcohol problem to drown the human image your parents helped create.