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You feel nothing for the girl he did this to?

Aw that's too short man :c But it sounds like you had an amazing experience, you're one lucky and smooth bastard. Wish my mom didn't look like a creature spawned from satans hemorroid ridden anus now. 

That was a good read. Beautiful love and bond you experienced. 

"The feeling of her head on my chest was one of the greatest feelings I've ever experienced. It was more of overflowing with happiness, at times to a almost euphoric level."

That kind of thing can be scary to recognize in hindsight, as that can be where notions of self control and free will feel questionable.

Did you give her the D?

I did and it was the reward of a successful 4 month positioning plan. I got in good within her inner circle and particularly close to one of her more social friends. I was invited to a get together where I knew she'd be there. It had been sometime since me and her sat down and had a conversation so we mostly reminisced, which was exactly where I wanted to steer her towards. Have her remember the old feeling of trust and get comfortable around me. I drank a couple shots to keep my nerves down otherwise I would've had the wide observing eyes. 

I aimed a few questions towards problems she was going through, as if I had no clue. She like me doesn't ask for help and prefers to bear the burden alone so getting it out of her took some re insistence "c'mon, I know you and I know when there's something wrong" I consoled her, when she went in for the hug is when I made my move and it proved successful.

As I put before I didn't enjoy the sex in a physical manner. It was nothing, just some tight friction. The pleasures of sex itself seemed dull and boring in comparison to the feeling of her being so close, entrusting me with herself. I made myself into a sensory sponge to remember everything. The feeling of her hair on my neck, the faintness of her breath, the way her hands winced on my back with each push, the way her sharp exhales were met with my long deep exhales and her falling asleep afterwards hugging my arms as they wrapped over her. 

Those pleasures meant far more to me than any of the sex.

It was extremely dangerous to just be around her in the earlier years. As time went by I gained more and more self control, the impulses towards her never dulled and still never have but I've gotten to a point where if I can anticipate them, I can deny them.

"Those pleasures meant far more to me than any of the sex."

Sentences like that make me suspicious of the quality of the sex itself.

You sound like you're writing a script for a fictional romance novel. I'm sure most people would eat it up too. All flowery and poetic. You sound like you're performing on a stage to me. Makes it difficult for me to find any genuine depth behind your words. 

That was a good read. Beautiful love and bond you experience.