"In life, I always did what had to be done."
What makes anything have to be done?
"I'm past those times, but whenever I see someone with my old similar behavior it stirs up a deep hatred to the point of simply being angry that they're breathing."
So... self loathing by proxy?
"I figure this is just a byproduct of regret and disgust at what I used to do but even that doesn't stop the feeling."
They're just people, they aren't capable of much beyond dooming themselves in more and more advanced ways.
"I naturally see myself as an enforcer of order, helping those who are being attacked and can't save themselves."
Why can't they?
"In short, only the weakest themselves call out and challenge the weak and it angers me to my core."
Picking on "the weak" is like picking crops off a farm to some people.
"Do you see your morals as right or wrong ethically?"
Not beyond my own principles anyway. Anything I regard as right or wrong formed from my opinions as opposed to any sort of standardized system. I try to avoid thinking of things as "right" or "wrong" since those words connect to the parts of my former OCD/OCPD behaviors in a caustic way that I risk becoming lost to, but it still crops up from time to time as a compulsion more than anything.
"And are there any of you on the other side of the spectrum, despising me ;)"
None of us know you yet, what's there to despise?
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In life, I always did what had to be done. Didn't matter who was on the opposite end, as long as I got what I wanted it'd be done. I'm past those times, but whenever I see someone with my old similar behavior it stirs up a deep hatred to the point of simply being angry that they're breathing. I figure this is just a byproduct of regret and disgust at what I used to do but even that doesn't stop the feeling.
I naturally see myself as an enforcer of order, helping those who are being attacked and can't save themselves. I have more respect for the more established hunters, people who use wrongful methods to get something worthy of the risks. In short, only the weakest themselves call out and challenge the weak and it angers me to my core.
Do you see your morals as right or wrong ethically?
And are there any of you on the other side of the spectrum, despising me ;)
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