You either love or you hate. You live in the middle, you get nothing.
And I'm doing my best to resolve and work around those. Whether the circumstances lead to recovery/remission or to more complications, I'll thank myself for the clear conscious I'll have knowing I did the best that I could with the knowledge I had at the time.
"You have a lot of control issues this thread won't teach you to let go of."
Of course not this thread no. But if I tear through the pages of history books it wont be long before I find something that I can correlate too.
Yep.
- I would buy stock in Pokemon back in the 90s when it was $1.00 a share and everyone thought it was going to be an overnight fad. I guess if I actually found myself back in time, I'd buy early stock in Google, Facebook, XBox and everything else I knew would be a success, lol.
- I would finish school the first time through instead of fucking around and skipping as much as I did. I was more than intelligent enough to pass, hell, I could have gotten a scholarship I'm sure of it. I just thought I had better things to do at the time. I was wrong, of course, but making retarded decisions based on inexperience and faulty logic is part of being a teenager, I guess.
- I would have started smoking pot years sooner than I did. Looking back, I realize that, by abstaining until peer pressure got the better of me, I missed out on all that fun for nothing. FTR, the pot had nothing to do with school, I didn't start smoking pot until I was in my twenties.
- I would have come out as trans when I was a kid, and begun hormone treatment before puberty so that I didn't get stuck with the wrong secondary sex characteristics, because waiting has been a major regret the whole time. I know people tell trans children that they're going through a phase. Well, I'm 30 right now and this "phase" has been going on since I was seven.
- I would have sex with more people.
- I would teach myself proper nutrition/exercise at a younger age because my parents really dropped the ball on that one and I'm STILL trying to break the bad habits they taught me.
- I would tell Jim Morrison to stay out of Paris, warn Robin Williams about that tumor early enough to take care of it and tell Michael Jackson to fire his doctor.
Probably a lot more things, but that's the stuff that pops up first, so I guess those are my biggest regrets.
How on earth would you have been able to start hormone therapy as a kid? That's not something doctors or parents would approve a child getting to my knowledge. I mean, I know there are a few parents in my generation that are now supporting the idea of having a trans child, but still- I can't imagine any doctor approving hormones for a child. Please educate me.
Also... majorly regretting the death of famous people? I've never understood that. These people die at legendary status, and their lives were in the toilet before they left this world, let's not forget. All three of the people you mentioned were miserable the entirety of their existence, but they still get to live on long after death because of their fame. Not many miserable junkie bastards get to have that.