You should probably find a partner that you can do this kind of stuff with, not someone who doesn't want it and you're going to abuse.
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For a serious answer to what is likely not a serious question, look into S&M and be willing to take into account things like safe words. It's the closest to abuse you can get without it being anything that risks getting you into trouble.
You might not be able to keep the same partner however, I know I wasn't able to.
I masturbate.
I have sex.
A lot.
Now, the problem is that when I cum I usually just let it off on my stomach, take a shower to clean up but I've noticed that recently I can't get a proper orgasm unless I fantasize about a woman getting viciously hurt. I get far more sexually aggressive when my girl starts begging me to stop, I try I do, but hearing her whimper and start to cry turns me on. I can't stop myself.
We got into an arguement a few nights ago and slapped her. Now I know oughtn't have but she was being hysterical. Her nose started to bleed and she began to cry. I got a fucking hardon. I calmed her down and apologized and she tried to go clean her face and I made her stop, I kissed her and she kept pushing away on account of the blood on her face. I like my sex rough and she knew it so she put up her little fight but point is that I've never had an orgasm like I did that night. Seeing the blood all over her cheek and going down her nose getting all mixed up with her tears made it amazing.
Now I know that ain't normal and I ain't accustomed to hitting ladies but seems to be what gets me off. Hearing my girl cry when she gets off the phone with her family gets me hard. I try to make it look like I'm being affectionate but really I just want to fuck her when she's sobbing. I want her to be in pain with my every thrust into her little pussy. I want to make her bleed and scream. I'm not just talking about nose bleeds and her menses. I mean cuts and injuries. Stab wounds and the like.
Again, that ain't normal. I know it ain't I went to church and all the hooha, I know society is all about soft gentle sex, angry sex too. But the minute blood and bruises gets involved people get all kinds of offended. I won't lie it's getting harder to control myself.
What do I do Sociopath Community?
Should I indulge myself?
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