A lot of times people here would talk about "triggers". What do you mean when you say that?
This guy spoke to me in a really nonchalant sarcastic way, and I thought nothing of it, in fact I felt a sort of euphoria response as I had interpreted it the wrong way.
Well, within a week I had accidentally damaged a piece of their property, totally by accident.
At a subsconsious level I must have somehow released an emotional protective response, or something, only to later seek revenge and satsifaction without myself truly operating at a planned conscious level. Mind you, after I damaged the property, I felt an enormous amount of guilt and worry. I entirely overreacted at that level. It took me a few days to erase it from my worries.
This probably happens with everyone. Ever hand something to someone only to have them break it accidentally, and they genuinely feel sorry, because they have genuinely accidentally broken it, rather than on purpose. However, deep down inside, you know differently, intuitively.
I've never been one to need anger management courses, however, if you've ever heard couples bicker, it largely sounds irrational as each trigger, incites them further into emotional response rather than rational response. If that makes sense.
I'd imagine based on that, that anger management would really be nothing more than emotional awareness training to identify and rationally deal with triggers.
I get the same feeling. Some people just anger me to the point of arousal (not in a good way), not sure why. I've connected the people's information but the only thing they have in common(like you said) are is that they are what I'd consider weak.
"I just see some people and want to murder them.."
Oh yea, it bothers me a lot considering it takes a considerable amount of things to invoke any emotion in the first place. Then off of initial sight I want to just rip someone apart. I want nothing more but to give them a cruel, slow death at my hands front of their loved ones. Just instant rage from seemingly nothing.
Edit: After some research some animals have the same issue. Murdering the weak of their kind for no apparent reason(natures way of strengthening the species). Maybe it's the remnants of a primal behavior still being passed down. I see similar behaviors in existence among people in a prevalence today.
Is the feeling permanently with that person or temporary for you?
I was actually just thinking about this. I've noticed that certain types of people throw me into a bloodlust and I'm barely sure why. But I'm not even angry with them, but I am feeling almost orgasmic when I imagine killing them. I don't understand it, it usually comes from people I deem as weak.
You would think this is some kind of inferiority thing but I know for certain that's not it. I just see some people and want to murder them.. or something. I don't even know dude.