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Anyone experience bouts of it? Like I am usually feeling at the top of the world, the sexiest God ever, the universe's gift to humanity, but then now and then I feel total disgust and contempt towards myself, wondering why I even keep living and how I should shoot myself to spare people of someone like me :/

Well,do nice things for yourself. Things you can be proud of. Exercise, watch your substance abuse, open the door for that old lady, let the car out in front of  you, compliment people, compliment yourself, stop the negative self-talk.

Reward yourself and nurture yourself- Example for me, pedicures, nice food, friends to laugh with, a new sweater. Etc.

I am sure there are positive things that people enjoy about you. Think of that when you are sad.

Then report to me for your spanking. :)

I get specks of self hate whenever I come across failure almost at any form, I've conditioned myself to it now but I used to anticipate failure to the point of anxiety. 

sounds like me pretty much every day . one moment i'm god, the next i feel the need to tell myself how much of a useless piece of shit i am. i blame it on bipolarness/sadomasochism. i'm trying to get over it though cause i know it's not really healthy and it doesn't really help you build yourself up as a person, other than keeping you humble and not some annoying narcissistc validation seeking ass. i'm striving to find more positivity in my life but that can be hard to find sometimes. 

I feel you brah, I have a combination of splitting and a very harsh inner judge, so everytime I lose, fail, or get dominated (except by a hot cruel dominatrix bitch, I like that shit) I literally break into pieces.

Self hate? What are you, a SJW? Stand up and make your ancestors proud! They're the ones that made your birth possible!

"boo hoo"

"Nope...don't get that crap"

Not even a small amount of dislike for yourself when you fail to meet your own expectations? What if it happened consistently?

Placing very high expectations on yourself shows results if you're committed. Sure it may push unnecessary stress and anxiety over you, but your also receiving success. Combined with narcissism it's like a double-edged sword that kills the other guy off first.

http://blogs.psychcentral.com/unplugged/2011/06/coming-out-of-the-borderline-personality-disorder-closet-without-hitting-my-head-on-the-door-jamb/

 ^^^ Xmas prezzie for you. 

Nope...don't get that crap Jim. That's your weird ass shit that you project all over the the place. 

Fix it and quit the pity ploy. That is disgusting.