"maintain the meat wagon"
should be more like delight and be a slave to the meat wagon.
ohmygawd! you have is assbackwards.
you see, my awareness is around to better serve the great flesh that is me. although, sometimes i'm certain i'm really just a spirit-being from before earth and etc existed, and that i've decided to fuck around and be a human for a while. but that doesn't betray my first point...not entirely, or maybe not at all. i'm getting confused.