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How so??? Well, you have to admit it, Jack. Most of your posts here are related to the fact that everyone hates/rejects you and etc. It's all about you regarding society and how others perceive/treat you. You're also victimizing yourself and, well, I don't know what type of life you've had, but whatever could've happened to you in the past should be forgotten. 

I've also noticed your own perception fluctuates a lot. For example, some days you feel superior and some others you post things about how inferior and sad you feel. If you've been treated like an inferior in the past, just forget it and keep in mind that other peoples opinions are just worthless. 

EDIT: And you shouldn't post things about killings and etc., you might end up with some legal problems. 

by JackC 4

I'm not sure how long I can buttress my murderorus propensity. I have to act upon it, but I just don't have it in me to bring this into the forefront and actually act upon it... I don't have the confidence nor the courage, containing it within the confines of these two petty emotional cages will only increase the likelihood of me actually doing it. I often have auditory Hallucinations, last week I was getting on the bus and my vision went blurry, I wasn't in reality anymore... I could hear the driver saying "Are you alright?" And when I came back into reality he wasn't saying that, he was just asking for the fare. I was perplexed by this, it hadn't occurred before in my consciousness. I suffer from paranoia, I constantly think people are looking at me, watching me, judging me and talking about me... It can often lead to me just leaving a public space in fears of actually acting upon the anger that builds. Or even hiding somewhere until I feel comfortable enough to come out. I sometimes find it difficult to distinguish between reality and non-reality... I talk to myself at home, openly talk to myself about politics and economics mostly, and sometimes other things as well like how much I despise certain people. I enjoy it, I like speaking to myself because it feels like I'm speaking to somebody else, I can construct the conversation in a way that is void of introspect, and that doesn't require a response as would a real conversation. I enjoy it because it feels like I'm speaking to somebody who truly understands, this has led me into a reclusive and solitary life. I'm beginning to enjoy the condition, I view it has being the real normal and everything else, that is, every other perspective, is inferior... And I'm right. It also brings deep and severe depression, depression that has brought along a form of mental masochism.

What is this? Because in this reality it's considered aberrant. I would like to know the external thoughts of what this could be, though I probably wouldn't accept it unless it aligns with my ideas of objectivity.

 Great, you confess to hearing voices now.

Luna, hurry up with covering your ass from a legal pov, after this lunatic cracks some peeps will definitely come to ask questions and shake their heads. XD

How so? 

"I suffer from paranoia, I constantly think people are looking at me, watching me, judging me and talking about me"

That's insecurity.

"It can often lead to me just leaving a public space in fears of actually acting upon the anger that builds."

Anger from social exclusion. 

"I talk to myself at home"

I'd had this to a mild extent. Go outside and talk to some friends, or anybody really.

"I enjoy it because it feels like I'm speaking to somebody who truly understands, this has led me into a reclusive and solitary life."

No, you being chased off from social situations has. Don't act like this behavior was a choice, you were forced into taking this option as it was the only one available to you.

"I'm beginning to enjoy the condition, I view it has being the real normal and everything else"

This is just you becoming numb to the pains of being a social exile. Being numb doesn't suppress the psychological need for it. There are still consequences for this.

"It also brings deep and severe depression"

Yea, the consequence^

"depression that has brought along a form of mental masochism."

You're just beating yourself up for not being sociable. Every human being needs socialization and no matter how much you try to isolate yourself or condition yourself you will still have that need. It's obvious you want to socialize, do it on a small level. I'm not saying you have to be the center of attention to get rid of these feelings. Find someone you can relate to, or even someone to listen and try to understand what you're going through. Most of my friends comprise of extroverted empaths, trust me it works.

I think you should focus more on yourself. You spend a lot of time thinking about other people and their behaviors. 

Edit: That's going to kill you eventually. 

The only way to make your life worthwhile is to assassinate Bibi Netanyahu.