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"What is your primary reason(s) for being this way?"
Byproduct of Genetic predisposition, and each day varies. The life I was thrown into otherwise gave more than enough room for extroversion, so I don't think it's a factor of environment. It's not in my nature even though socializing is very fun to me otherwise.

"Were you always like this? If not, what influenced you to seclusion?"
I don't like it, but being among people is horribly draining some days. It's too much stimulus all at once sometimes, way too much data. Makes my thoughts feel like noise instead of anything I can use.

"Do you plan to stay this way? If not, explain how you plan on changing."
If my tolerance ever decreases I make more of an effort to go to large gatherings to get past it. I like large crowds generally since I love people watch, it just sucks when I'm overly receptive. I like socializing, it's not difficult once past the first sentence they ever hear from me, but there's a lot of thinking involved. My thinking tends to work at variable speeds based on multiple factors, and some days it's just too damn fast to understand beyond volume.

"And finally, what are the biggest pros & cons you face with being introverted?"
It's not pros and cons of that, it's what has me be or appear introverted that's an issue. If I can keep that under control it's just a matter of nerves when in unfamiliar areas. That portion's easy enough to handle.

I tend to use people I know or other sources of familiarity like my hearth, my comfort zone, a lifeline bungee cable sort of thing I can bounce off of to resume enough comfort should I have less control over myself than I'd like. It's much easier these days than it used to be, but there's still some nerves and difficulty from time to time.

When you are manic all you talk about is wanting to get fucked. Tell me what your "World" interests are?

Sometimes I believe I am playing myself. I'm a dx'ed schizoid trying to go against my nature because I must. It's hard for me and I keep trying to defy, defy my natural ways. The real me does not get any pleasure out of these relationships..and I find myself wasting away the days doing activities I hate. 

Pleasure derived from relationships for me is like a homosexual trying to get pleasure from the opposite gender...that's what I think it is for me. I'm not just going to wake up one day and get pleasure from things other people do. I don't like to say I lack normal body functions...but I do I can tell. I lack the chemistry time and time again without fail. I am missing something. I am missing the reward here

It comes up because you're constantly talking about yourself.

Also yeah, it does come up a lot. I even mentioned this to you on the Old Forum.

Tell me what your views are in politics. Try to be specific if that's possible for you.

People have made this comment before and I don't understand it.  I am communicating as myself to other people. I am using the word "I" because that is who I am.

Isn't that what people do on forums?

You make your comment, I make my comment. Isn't that how communication works?

I am not speaking for anyone else. That is why I use the word I.

Dictionary-

I pronoun \ˈī, ə\
: the person who is speaking or writing

What aren't my interests? Music, politics, reading, nature, books, swimming, architecture, art, science, food, culture, people, place things.

See my ADHD vid. There is just less noise when there aren't 20 other people in my space.

I adapt and adjust when I have to, but I'd rather not have to pay attention to so much crap.

by wilful

 

by Systematic

I would say a good deal of us here are introverted.  

 

• What is your primary reason(s) for being this way? 
• When I get up in the morning, when I get off work, on my days off, I just prefer being alone.  It has always been this way, even though I am married w/ kids.  Every single second of my life being around someone else seems fake.  Or better stated,I act the part unless I am alone.

 

• Were you always like this? If not, what influenced you to seclusion?
• Always

 

• Do you plan to stay this way? If not, explain how you plan on changing.
• Indeed

 

 

 

• And finally, what are the biggest pros & cons you face with being introverted?
• Pros: i hate people in general.  The fake ass "hi, how are you today" goes away when alone....
• Cons: i need some of them for some things

 

 I find it interesting you are married with kids. I have known some loners with families...never on a personal level, but reading their posts. I am working hard to make sure I go against my natural tendency to be a loner and I know it's not going to get better but only worse. It does feel very fake.

by Pink01

Sometimes I believe I am playing myself. I'm a dx'ed schizoid trying to go against my nature because I must. It's hard for me and I keep trying to defy, defy my natural ways. The real me does not get any pleasure out of these relationships..and I find myself wasting away the days doing activities I hate. 

Pleasure derived from relationships for me is like a homosexual trying to get pleasure from the opposite gender...that's what I think it is for me. I'm not just going to wake up one day and get pleasure from things other people do. I don't like to say I lack normal body functions...but I do I can tell. I lack the chemistry time and time again without fail. I am missing something. I am missing the reward here

 

 Intriguing.