Remember being in Germany a year before the Berlin wall came down, we said it would never come down and we were wrong.
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I'm fairly certain I'm not a sociopath. I'm probably a Malignant Narcissist. The two are distinct, I think. I am curious to what extent the folks here feel that they are self-contained, vis a vis being comfortable with and close to others.
When I'm around others, I'm basically playing a character. The character depends on who I'm around, and what's necessary to attain what I require from the person. This leaves me with a hunger to be truly close to someone and bond in a real way. This desire surfaces every now and then. It is not constant, nor is it particularly insatiable. But it is there.
Do you feel there's someone in your life that you genuinely love and/or are close to? I can only think of one person, another person with a PD who I met on the Internet, and even she gets to see only a part of me.
^^ You!! Generally you have much better in the way of input.
by MagnussonI'm fairly certain I'm not a sociopath. I'm probably a Malignant Narcissist. The two are distinct, I think. I am curious to what extent the folks here feel that they are self-contained, vis a vis being comfortable with and close to others.
When I'm around others, I'm basically playing a character. The character depends on who I'm around, and what's necessary to attain what I require from the person. This leaves me with a hunger to be truly close to someone and bond in a real way. This desire surfaces every now and then. It is not constant, nor is it particularly insatiable. But it is there.
Do you feel there's someone in your life that you genuinely love and/or are close to? I can only think of one person, another person with a PD who I met on the Internet, and even she gets to see only a part of me.
Narcissism seems to be the flip side of BPD, both emotional and sensitive to to recognition and in constant need of validation...
I look at the "characters" as facades a rejection of yourself. Why to reject yourself and attempt to be someone else?
And have had this discussion before and it went nowhere anyways as as Logic and Reason cannot it seems be absorbed beyond the level of the character.
Regardless, not useful thought to you I am sure, rather are you Dx'd? Self diagnosed? In therapy?
Google is your friend, as is the NPD forum at PF. Some interesting info there.
Online , is fantasy. Filling in the gaps for the unknown. You can know nothing of her or she of you from online alone. Nons get destroyed by the online catfishing as it is, BPD are worse for it and HPD... have mercy that's another crowd of I don't know what. AsPD depends hi or lo functioning but...what a person wants in another, is is yet another question. So...a label is a label....not your identity. It's not who you are. At the same time, if you are misanthropic, misogynist and abusive, won't matter what label you wear, you are an ahole.
Why the characters? If you know that to be the case, why even bother? It's a choice then.....so...?
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