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Isolation and loneliness used to affect me a lot in the past. During those moments, my mind was always infested with strange thoughts and ideas. Now, things have changed and I feel much better when I'm alone. Others just make me feel uncomfortable and I have to be 'another' person in order to interact with other people. 

While my tolerance for it is high now, when I spend quite a bit of time alone I start having certain emotions that override my average behavior. These only last for a couple hours but it resurfaces frequently until I have contact.. I'm fairly sure this is different in each person. So how about you?

I personally tend to get very nostalgic first off, poetic, romantic and docile. I lose all of my ambition when I'm not around anyone and times like that are the only time I actually get any sort of peace and relaxation. 

And here we all are. :)

Born alone, Live alone, Die alone.

I am an extraverted sensitive outcast. I think this is common in people with mental illness. We are hard to be around. I can't tell you how often I have been told to stop talking so much, to calm down, to bite my tongue, to cool my temper, that I am embarrassing someone, that I shouldn't be so loud.

When I'm alone, I don't feel lonely. I feel lonely when someone was supposed to be there, but wasn't. Most my thoughts then wander to how rude it is to stand someone up like that. Isolation is misunderstood. The only personal downfall of temporary isolation is missing out on certain perks, but then the cost of including yourself in other people's lives isn't always that reasonable either. Sometimes I want t change it but then I remember why I don't, and I don't regret it.

I don't actually need people to be present. What I need is other people's thoughts. You could leave me with just the Internet or a pile of books and I wouldn't even notice I don't see anyone IRL. I have lived almost fully isolated for long stretches of time. However I do have a need of animal companionship.

"I think this is common in people with mental illness. We are hard to be around."

Actually, a lot of them learn how to blend in. It's... unfortunate that you can't.

I get lonely occasionally. Most other people I've met don't seem to be able to relate to the way I think, which can feel quite isolating at times.

Sometimes I think it would be nice to have someone I can confide in and share some of my most private thoughts with, but I find it hard to trust anyone. I also only like people around me when it suits me, which makes it hard to maintain a lasting friendship.

Most of my previous friendships in the past were superficial. I tend to use people to get what I want out of them. Once I'm done with them, I lose all interest in them. 

One day I'd like to find someone who can maintain my interest in them, who can actually relate to me, and who I can learn to trust. I think everyone needs at least one close friend they can open up to.

"Also from what I see is that most people usually don't feel that entertained around others compared to the hype they create around friendship and regular meetings with friends. Most of them seem to do it because they can't be alone and need their weekly dose of social approval."

I agree Ret. I like to be in public, but only value the opinion of a select few people.