"sometimes when i consider myself having a "normal" life, i feel as if suicide would be better."
Yea, I really don't see how they do it. Especially when you see that person in their 40's working in McDonalds.
"I feel that I have almost perfect genes. i'm attractive, smart, healthy, good immune system, and when i look around me... my self-confidence skyrockets."
Don't you just love that?